Jell'O

Robotic heart

2012-01-29T04:47:00.005+11:00

Sometimes I admire myself about how I can still remain all calm and collected when crazy hazards run head on towards me. Perhaps I was usually prepared and well equipped with weapons and armors that prevents any heavy damage done to me.
Yes, even when he dropped the bomb about him cheating.
There was no tears, no heart pain nor anger, just questions and more confusing questions.
I felt like a person watching a show...

you're still the best, next to her. He said.

Then why did you confess to her? I said

It was in the moment, I just did. He said

It was impossible from the start, she was going back to her country forever and she said 'no, I dont trust you'. He said

I would'nt trust you too, and what if she said yes? I said

Would you two time me then? I said

or would you leave me for her? I said

Was I the best cuz she couldnt stay? I said

I dont know what he said next. I couldnt hear clearly, my thoughts were deafening, louder than his words.
I cant decide, I feel confused but not angry.
I feel let down but not sad.

Tears were unnecessary.
I'm just glad that theres no one to reads my blog, cuz I dont even blog much anymore.
I dont know what to say if anyone asks me about this. I dont know what expression should I put on.
Should I smile? or cry?
or be angry?
should I say I'm okay? or should I bawl and complain??
If you by any chance read this,
don't mention this or ask me how I am or how I feel.
I dont know.

Irritating People

2011-12-26T02:23:00.002+11:00

I have deleted Cbox forever cuz of some spam bots.
This is so irritating.
To have a Cbox, and then some strangers started posting nonsense in malay in it. I believe them to be spam bots.
Is it cuz I'm inactive for long periods of time on blogger? or cuz I've been having this blog around for years??? I just want to get rid of them once and for all.......

Blardy irritating...

Goodbyes

2011-08-05T00:36:00.002+10:00

Goodbyes are just too painful.
Recently there's so many goodbye i gotta say, so many friends leaving my side physically.
To my friends in Sg
To my friends that left from melb after graduation
Yea, they're still around but all at the other end of the world, at least thats how i feel like.

Today, just said goodbye to the two friend i spent most of my happiest memory with in melbourne, and feeling pretty darn low about it. Not cuz i'll not see her again, but cuz the time and days spent together like this has ended, and never ever will return again. True, i'll see them again, spend time with them but in no way will it ever be like this again. I'm so emo, and i couldnt sleep this feeling away even after i took a nap after they went off. In fact, the feeling of emptiness just amplified. Being the only one in this giant bungalow certainly doesnt help, especially when memories are everywhere in the house.

Today i also did a self confirmation to myself about a feeling, yes, a friend is drifting away...probably because he/she found some new friends whom he/she prefers to be with more. Double emos.

"Loneliness, your silent whisper, fills a river of tears through the night
Memory, you never let me cry, and you, you never said goodbye"

Singapore

2011-08-01T17:49:00.003+10:00

I'll be flying to aussie in another few hours, wondering if I'll see SG soon? or will it be another year before i'm back? Sometimes i'm so tempted to fly immediately back to SG to stay for good after studies cuz i miss everyone here, my hobby and my family...but then, i cannot just give up my chance like that...Gotta try before I give up so I dont regret.

This holiday was fun, and very very very busy...met alot of new friends, and I had the best farewell~ it was really a unexpected surprise ^^ I'm so touched by everyone~~ Thank you guys~~!! And also especially to Akira and Melvan whom i think are the main planners for the surprise~~<3
I'm so sorry to those i couldnt invite out , or have forgotten to call some of you out just because i was so busy, doing my last few shoots and packing my luggage...>.< but really, I didn't really forget about you, I was just so lost in the lousy and hectic planning of mine...>.< So sorry *bows*.

Sentosa farewell (we'll meet again) XD

2011-02-20T05:37:00.003+11:00

Today went to sentosa with Angel and Joann for a last fun outing before I fly back to aussie >.< We jumped into the sea, swam/fooled around(except joann~) and even tried to build a sandcastle which failed cuz of rain... It was pretty fun even though it rained at about 4-5pm like tt..XD Angel even went through the trouble to make a video of us having fun and such~ XD. I'm so touched~~~ >.< All these fun outings with all these really awesome friends really made me reluctant to fly back to aussie and get my ass back to studies. I'm so gonna miss all of you people~
It still just felt like yesterday, when i just touched down back on SG land, all worn out from the last battle i had with school projects. I still remember, vividly, about the vocaloid winter shoot which took place immediately the next day after i touched down and, all the new people and friends that i met then~. How can time just pass by so fast when i'm having fun? what a detestable crime D=. Now this holiday just became another one of my happy memories without me being fully prepared to be a serious, nerdy ~~book~~lappyworm again.

Anyway~ some piccies from todays's outing, and the outing with max and Co @ kiseki ^^

Cagnet-Hear Me Cry

2011-02-18T05:30:00.003+11:00

I'm looking for the piano scoresheet for this song...
Anyone have?
Pls tell me if u do~

Cagnet-Hear Me Cry

Steamboat~

2011-02-08T03:54:00.003+11:00

Had a crazy night out yesterday with Angel, went to dragonfly for ladies night, got tired of it and switched to zirca. I'm actually pretty surprised mum didnt refuse the idea of going clubbing even though she had a BIG reaction when i told her that i wanna go~ haha, no she didnt scream or yell, but it was a pretty interesting reaction >.<. So anyway, we played till VERY late and i reached home at about 6am. Good thing i didn't and won't do this much cuz i sensed the unhappy aura around mum soon after. LOL.
Anyway i was out like a light, until about 1230pm today then i had to prepare to help my friend with maya, and then...finally...together with Angel, JP and Andy, we went out to eat steamboat at bugis! XD it was nice but i couldn't eat much cuz i got full too easily..T_T boooo..and to think i once ate a mountain of xiao long baos along with steamboat at crystal jade =.=

It was fun, and ...er SIAO whenever angel is around.. i dunno i think she pretty much turned me into a laughing idiot when I hang around her =X We were such nutcases till Andy says the alcohol from yesterday must still be running in our body...but yet right now I can't remember what I was laughing about so much right now actually ....=.="

On a more serious note, lately I've been feeling down quite alot. Not sure if it's cuz my holidays are coming to an end soon, and I have to go back to aussie, or is it cuz...of feelings. Alot of words i need to say, alot of emotions and questions waiting to burst out. Its confusing, frustrating and it's driving me crazy. I couldnt find a person, I'm comfortable enough with, around to hear me out at the very least, or even to emo along with.
At least, not anymore now.

New Year, New layout

2011-02-05T23:47:00.004+11:00

Yesh, I know i've not been updating in eons (again).

I've been good, never better, and hopefully I've matured again, even if a little, i sure hope i did.

Just decided to change the layout of my blog to something not so dark. A change of mood brings about a happier blogging experience i hope~, for those who've already given up on reading new stuff on my blog, and suddenly decides to swim over here, dont be TOO surprised okay? haha.

Hmm, done some reflections on the past year, 2010. I should have done so earlier but still, it should'nt be too late now.
Starting off, there were tough times, when I doubt decisions that I made, and times when I couldnt be happier and more satisfied than I could have ever been.
The only thing that really nagged at me was the quiet life I lead. It was seriously waaaaaay too quiet. I know i never did belong to the wild side, but 2010 was really really too toned down. I wished I was doing more interesting and exciting stuff, but apart from skii-ing i really cannot recall what else I did. Now at my last year of my student life, I sure hope 2011 gets more crazy~.
Anyway, looking at the advantages of staying home quietly, I've interacted and got to know more about my housemates, grown closer and felt more like i was part of the member of the 'family' of that house, instead of being a 'being that rented a room from them'.

Now 2011, I've done up a resolution with my friend, kept it in a bottle and decorated it, and will only open it at the end of the year and check what are the resolutions I've accomplished and what i've totally forgotten about. I never believed in new year resolutions, cuz it never worked for me, but this year I was convinced by my friend to make it in the name of 'fun'. besides, i think since it's been years that I've last written a new year resolution, perhaps now i'll have more will-power to make at least one of my resolutions come true^^.

Addicted~

2010-09-07T02:09:00.003+10:00

I'm addicted to shopping... not in singapore at least ...
It all started cuz of one shoe..one friggin nice ankle high boots with friggin high heels.
It unleashed the pent-up feeling of my longing to shop cuz that boots was too ex for the budget i set for myself. It's a fking 160AUD...rockets way over the limits of my budget, even the little leeway which i always set for any ex stuff that I happen to fall for.
No i didn't buy it..that's why the feeling i guess..
Viki introduced me to online shopping afterwards...
Luckily.

but its making me lose focus on work..damn..
I shall go watch some animes b4 sleeping.

o wait..
the real culprit that makes me lose focus is
ANIME AFTERALLL ARGGGHHHH
SHOPPING CANT TAKE THE BLAMEA AFTERALLLLL!! NUUUUUUUU
*sorry animes... i love u too much.. i can feel myself transforming into a otaku...goodbye to the past me*

PS**
btw i found my so-called stolen cup.
I just claimed it from behind the curtains at the window in the kitchen.
someone left it there =.="
wouldnt hav found it if no one bothered to pull up the curtains.
........
.....
...
.
better yet...
i just realised i have NEVER been to the kitchen side outside of my house b4.
not even ONCE since i moved in.
lols

=)

2010-08-13T17:26:00.002+10:00

Ahhhh... When holidays come to an end, then is the time i finally had some real fun...went skiing in mt buller just b4 sch re-opens!! =D so coool!! Darn ex too, for a single day trip, but pretty well worth the money. Saw some real big snow flakes since it was snowing, though it's stinging when it hits your face in full force T_T. XD.

One of my cups really did get stolen... prob by one of the people from one of the big crowds that entered our house for filming. He/she really damn bo liao, cheapskate Big W cups oso wanna steal ( equivalent value to those u buy from daiso kind in SG). =.= but still caused me such trouble lor...I need 1 cup in my room and one cup in the kitchen so i dun hav to keep running up and down to drink water...had to keep running downstairs until i bought myself another new cup >=(

Revived!

2010-08-02T01:39:00.006+10:00

Ok.. It seems that I've been too ~~lazy~~ busy lately till i never update my blog any more...but contrary to what a sotong told me, my blog isnt dead... =X
Right now i'm spending so much time rolling in bed reading mangas and watching animes that i fear i'm halfway to becoming an otaku T_T.

I'm just somewhat glad school's starting soon...

I found this guy's deviantart http://amenokitarou.deviantart.com/ , saw his props and fell in love with them... esp his FF13's sword..damn imba...

if only i was half as good ><..

Oh wells
^^

Hailstormy day...boreeddd

2010-03-06T20:23:00.009+11:00

Stuck at home today..coz it rained hailstones >.< frigging bored..All the transport to the city are down coz of flood or it was badly damaged by the hailstorm.
Apparently it's a one in a hundred yrs hailstorm to be seen in melb, and the ice goes up to as big as a golfball.
I was so bored that i took pics of the scene of a neighbour's house and car, when it was hailstorming, all from the seat in my warm comfy room.
Oh btw, surprisingly I dont feel cold at all without (heater in the hse), before, after and during the hailstorm.

Icey road..

Look at that carrrr...=.=

Video of hailstorm, soley taken out of boredom
Yeah.. it's lousy, should hav gone downstairs to take but..look at the ice bouncing off the window towards the end of vid..
If that hits u..ouch...

Back...

2010-02-28T01:20:00.002+11:00

Oops... I lied... =X....

I didnt update before the end of 2009 in the end..

anyway..

Hi..

Lazy to type so everything will be in bits and pieces

Been busy, but now back in Melb...sch starting soon...

Been for 2 photoshoots on the 20th and 21st...and flew to melb on 22nd.

Wishing hols r not coming to an end...

Ack...

Tis sem..

muz ganbatte too.

cheers...

Back in SG

2009-12-22T23:08:00.002+11:00

HIIIIIII, I've been stale for so long...yeah, i'm back in sg and i wonder hw many ppl actually still bother to read my blog..lols, it's been rotting for the past many many weeks. Some updates on my status, right now i've been back in SG for a whole month at least already, stoned at home, been to AFA, cut my hair, met up wif most of my friends and found a jobbie. Oh and yea.. i'm really really broke. Sorry peeps, i don't think i can spare $$ for Christmas presents for everyone as much as i wish, but yea, i'll still wish everyone a very merry christmas.

Right now, I'm working part time at a japanese restaurant around the CBD area, today's my 2nd day at work...it's quite far from my house but the pay's good ... Besides, the people there are really friendly and i believe i'm the only SG there..lols. Dun quite like their uniform coz i dun think it compliments me AT ALL, esp after i got short hair...I ended up looking like a kunoichi who overeats..==

Anyway, I've cut my hair very very short...but I like it (although i forgot to tell the salon girl to leave a nice portion of my hair as a tail, at the back, i think it would be better)...The salon is really good, it's 'chapter 2' located at marina square. The stylists all look very creative and i love some of their hair..ommgg. I spent $280++ at the salon cuz i did soft rebond, treatment, cut and wash and also got their shampoo+conditioner+styling mousse( i think) for rebonded hair coz got promo...even though i alr running low on $$$, so that's how i degraded my walled to the rank 'BROKE'. Yea, time to grow more mold at home rather than go out.

...And er, i refuse to put any picture on my blog now...because i'm being lazy as i've not taken any photo of my hair yet.

I better make a list of things i need to get/pay for according to priority as a reminded for myself..so money wont randomly flllyyyyy...
here goes:
1) A WACOM (i'll die if i dun have it when sch starts) -budget $200-$300
2) 2 costumes that's still hibernating at aunty tailor's hse( fellas, you are definately not forgotten) - shld be abt$200 or $250
3) My electric guitar set (getting in AUSSIE) - about 400AUD
4) new year's clothing - budget-$200

I think..tt's all. 4 priorities with killer prices...(THAT's why i say i'm broke and really really nid to save up more).

I'm demolishing my plan to get a electric piano in aussie for now coz it's at least $1000AUD and i dunno if i'll be moving or continue staying in my current place in aussie by this year's sept/oct.

I promise (everyone and myself) i'll follow up with another update before the start of the new year.

Expire ~ a phrase i should'nt but wish to forget~

2009-10-08T21:46:00.001+11:00

Define expire. My dictionary says that 1-(of something that lasts for a time) come to an end, 2- die. Everything in the world expires... be it milk, food, bulbs, plants blab la bla.... and HUMANS. It occurred to me that, I’ve never really heard anyone say that ‘ (insert person’s name) is going to/ already expired’ or at least I’ve just never came across it. It sounds damn weird doesn’t it?
Yea, maybe it’s me just being bo liao today but I think it was the best word to describe what i felt in the past not so long ago, but yet feels so far. I had felt very exhausted, robotic and plastic....bla bla... on top of that, empty. No one, besides my mum noticed, or they just did’nt bothered saying anything. That smile on my face was never really just for show, until I feel literally that everything was just black and white. A very efficient robot took over and carried my life on the way it should be, while I locked out my thoughts on things I want to do, things I really wanted to happen and stuff like that. The point is, that time, I felt expired. I’ve finally found the exact work to place in the blank of what I felt - expired.
I remember that day when a lecturer when up to me and say ‘ you look sad, what’s wrong?’, and I was literally surprised that he said that AND the fact he said it in the middle of a class with everyone present =.=”... anyway, Who won’t be surprised? Especially when you thought u were perfectly fine. Now thinking back, I was not fine at all. The life I wanted and deserved wasn’t there. Things were’nt going the way I wanted it to be. How could I have forgotten that the life I wished to have then was supposed to be meaningful, fun and adventurous?? Looking back now made me realize I’ve missed out more than I can imagine, and that I could never return to the past and change things. These past few days in uni made me realize this much more clearer than ever. How could I be fine? Had I retreated from reality subconsciously? Have I buried everything I wanted till I forgot about it?? Was that why at a certain point nothing seems to interest me anymore??
Somehow, my gut feeling says ‘yes, yes. . . YES’
Don’t worry about this, I’m being emo and it’s all in the past and I just wanted to have this post so I wont ever ever forget that word to describe the past me, and that phrase of my life. That me had already expired long ago, and this current me would not let history repeat itself again.

Post.....

2009-10-03T22:53:00.006+10:00

Contemporary design issue has the least project to do, but it’s the one eating up my time the MOST. 1500words essay to write, with an absolutely empty mind... ACK... and I hate my lecturer, she gave me 15/30 for my online participation, and only just told me that my participation this Thursday was very good. BUT it doesn’t make sense... coz, I’ve been THIS active since the 2nd lesson(the first one I couldn’t participate at all coz my lappy just wont allow me to post any comment no matter what I try).. so I ask her if she could tell me why I got 15/30 when I’ve ALWAYS been this active. . .AND THEN SHE IGNORE MY EMAIL. Win ler lor....= .=”

Anyway~ my parents came over for this past 1 week break^^ , and they bought me a new Macbook pro~!! Wheee!! Although I told them I’ll get it when I’m back in dec or if there’s a fair or sth here, but they went ahead and bought it for me~ so happy... Now I’ve got a lappy that can type dots.
Anyway~ I’m getting fed-up with my housemates already, they’re no angels. Hsemate A doesn’t wish to contribute to practically everything in the house. HsemateB complains so much about minor stuff, or about housemate A till I’m getting sick of her. The reasons that makes B the one that pisses me off so much that I’ve got to come here to let out steam and stop denying that she’s very irritating are
1- her English SUCKS( I have proof okay? Even the Shop assistant can’t understand what she says), and still complain about other ppl’s English AND hint very obviously that her English is good.
2- she is VERY RUDE eg: instead of saying ‘excuse me’ she says ‘go away’
3- she is a BITCH. . .(personal thought coz of bad experience with her and im not gonna b posting the incident)
4- bad liar obviously. . . her food stock takes up more than half of the whole friggin fridge. Pratically 90% of the food belongs to her and the weight was so bad that the plastic shelf/compartments/board (whatever, the thing that divides the fridge into compartments) CRACKED. Well there was a small crack already on one of the plastics but she has to go and crack another one and enlarge the existing one. . . =.=. The part that irritates me is thah, she still can open up the fridge, show me the stuff inside and blame Taiwan girl for buying so much stuff.
Haiz... The only reason why I care about the fridge is coz, if anything goes wrong WE all have to pay for damages when the ppl comes for inspection next friday. I don’t want to pay for damages I never cause.
Steam’s let off. . . hopefully I find a new hse and move out asap. . .There's this really nice house near school that I'm applying for~ hopefully i can get it, along with 3 other friends~ ^^
Anyway~
Some of the pics from the places my parents and I went to in melb

Dumb and cute looking penguin~

I like this fish~ taken at melb aquarium

Jellyfish!!! XD they look cute ne~

First wombat i've seen in my life~ looks like a black pig

That's a wallaby~ a smaller and cuter version of a kangaroo

Tour bus that we took~

Flock of birds~ i thought they still looked 'toot'

check for penguins under cars~ that's after viewing the penguin parade, they are really small, maybe little bigger than yr normal 500ml of water bottle??

Randomly~
some pics of my sch lib~ i love the design of the building, esp at night~ ^^

The building~

Inside the building (just outside library)

The library! ^^

~nijuuichi no tanjoubi...~

2009-08-30T11:23:00.005+10:00

...was over last Thursday. Thanks Yohanna, for buying me a cheesecake and eating it together in the middle of the class's break on wed at about 6pm...hehe. The cake was GIGANTIC, i was very full after eating it, and she cant finish hers as i let her have the bigger piece >< Then after class about 730, I went out for a movie with Aidi right after my lesson. She brought me to this place on Lygon street, Universal Pizza or sth like that and we had pasta for dinner.. their entree size portion wasnt that filling actually, coz it's really quite small.. but it was good, i was quite full thanks to the cake before...^^ Anyway~ She treated me the movie as my bday present!! We watched Inglorious Basterds. It was a good movie, really funny and gory, it's about the Jews and the Nazis, and how the Jews revenged themselves. Brad Pitt was damn hilarious. HEHEHE. AND so...the movie ends late...so, at 12.00am, the first person to wish me happy bday, to give me a gift and all.. IN PERSON...was Aidi LOLS. But yeah, thanks to everyone who wished me a happy bday~..^^

Anyway on thursday itself, i was struggling with some online class research at 1130am. =.=. Still couldnt figure out what was wrong with my F-ed up com so i had to go to school for the online class...damn sad, could've stayed home if my com fixed it's own problem. After that, i felt so zoned out when i reached home...thanks to the almost-impossible to find research.

Later, when all my housemates got ready, we went for...FREE PIZZA AND WINES~!! It was some kinda Swinburne Apartment residences gathering...which we...decided NOT to go last minute...=.= THERE WAS ABSOLUTELY NO ASIANS IN DERE AT ALL...oh lols...we were so unsociable. >.< We ended up going to get some fruits, canned and fresh ones, a salad sauce..a champagne and came back to our place and had fruit salad =P...It was really nice........ i didnt know tt hard boiled eggs can be added into fruit salads and NOT taste funny..lols..I'm a frog in the well.

Anyway, some pics... some of them i didnt get to post up before.

With Shu Jing~ after shopping~

Yohanna and I

The Cake~!!!

Aidi and her drink which i think looks like bubble tea

Me and my apple Juice...i think i got addicted to apple juice...=.="

my pasta!!! (milano)..looks pretty small against the massive plate eh?

Aidi's dish...lasagnia... looks small too...hmm

He Li making the salad~ pro~ its really very nice..

my very random dinner and the fruit salad

^^wheeeee

2009-08-23T20:37:00.003+10:00

Been so long since I’ve done any updates.. OH yeah~! I met up with my net friend koko-chan from CR finally!! WHEE~! She’s damn tall, taller than me~…. >< and she’s such a nice person...quite chatty too~ =D heh heh…blast u, all those cautions about net friends…MY FIRST EXPERIENCE WAS A GOOD ONE!
Anyway, just came back from playing lan wif Koko chan and her friends…played call of duty and L4D…lol… quite fun nia, forgot all the controls and…yea it can really cause headache.. >.<
BTW..I feel so screwed… although I managed to install adobe aftereffects but..I CANNOT USE IT OMG.
Confirm kena bluescreen if I run the programme. Then the school only have this tiny lab open for student’s use during the day. HOW SIA!!! When the submission date starts to come nearer, confirm fully booked ler…die. Somebody…hel…he…heeeelp!! And this… tells me that it is crucial to get a Macbook. Com or lappy either one is fine. Then u ask..WHY not another better windows xp/vista instead?? cheaper somemore! Coz…I greedy mah… I want mac cannot arh? =X lol
Its really nice shopping around here although there are a lot of money-starved shop around, there’s also some not so deprived ones with really nice stuffies inside. YES I fell into the trap of shopping…I need to stop. Dun wanna see my money fly anymore.
ANYWAY.. I saw this in melb central’s toilet….lols~

Damn cool…life lesson in the toilet…TOILET LEH OMG….btw u will never see this in SG…sure kena get slapped vandalism fines in the face…and even if u do see one…where got such meaningful vandalism in SG one??? yeah I took the pic in the toilet cubicle…so the ppl in the toilet queue all heard the sound of my camera going off (I think)… =.=”

~Atarashii life stage~ (melb chapter)~

2009-08-03T21:59:00.006+10:00

WOOOOOOOOO…Finally almost all settled in.
HP line – done,
Internet- done
Bank – done
School – seen and went for orientation

What else? Some other misc stuff and my student ID I nid to make…Melbourne is such a big place.. and winter here is damn cold…it’s the coldest month of the year, goes down to 8 degrees Celsius.. I miss the Singapore sun.
In my rented apartment, I was the first to reach… and still am alone here..none of the other 2 housemates are here yet. D=… its double storey and its IRRITATING coz I have to climb up and down to get stuff here and there if I forget. Now I noe how good it is to live in a single storey >.<
I was quite an idiot.. came here liao then realize forgot to bring my diploma cert/transcript and my O levels cert…and I never print out my course syllabus…=.=”. Scatter Brained me…luckily my brother scanned it and sent to me…and Melissa (the person in charge) at my dorm was kind enough to print them out for me FOC, coz I told them I need it urgently and I don’t have anywhere else to go to print. Actually when I went orientation today can print der, BUT it costs a friggin 11cents for one piece of black and white…photocopy or print. Double of SG printing prices…omg.
Also everything here is so different ...the weather(needless to say), the culture, so many angmos… transport system…its more complicated and easy at the same time… anyway, dere’s SOOOOO much variety of food here, from all over the world…dere’s even a place my parents and I found at the Chinatown area called Singapore chomp chomp =D. lols..never tried the food. But I heard some are good..and some…yuck.
Anyway, orientation here was all talk, no games and full of international students all over the world… much more useful than the SG ones.. the lecturers were interesting..and the talks were short and useful, straight to the point too...sg one so boring, and have pointless games…not that it didn’t work in icebreaking…but I just find it…pointless. Oh, and I had free lunch here today...i had a free britzel (a pretzel brand bah..)
My parents r going to return home soon…then, I’ll truly be on my own… even though its gonna be exciting, fun, …whatever, but I’m gonna miss everyone…
Thanks for all who came to the airport to send me off...>.<

Some few pics I have…

Horse carriage on the ROAD...=D havent sat on it yet...but maybe..in future >.<

Their train(pok kai looking but..comfy and workable)...and track at flinders street

the building where i'm staying...

my school~

My school again~
(sry! dunno hw to get the angle i wanted...)

POVERTY

2009-07-20T03:39:00.002+10:00

Chanced upon this vid, and remembered what mum always says 'Do not waste food.'
The first phrase that popped into my head when i saw this was 'one man's poison is another's treasure'

View this movie at cultureunplugged.com

COSFEST Vlll = a very happy event updated

2009-07-13T00:29:00.007+10:00

Just came back from cosfest day2...really a very happy event. It was on the TV news just now, but only awhile...damn cool.woo~ yest went as kaname kuran from VK, today as kaito from airgear. Was fun yesterday, had a VK ps with the team at fort canning, did retarded things along wif the shoot...then cab-ed down with team mates to pasir ris..at the end of the day wanted to take night shoot der but the blardy rain...cheh!!! >.<
Today, too was fun, except yuuki fell sick so i dun hav a agito/akito wif me today, I ended up going solo...T_T KAITO IS SAD. BUUTTTT I TOOK PICTURE WIF JESU, WISHED HER A HAPPYBDAY AND LET HER KNOW I AM HER HARDCOREFAN, LET HER FED ME A SMALL PIECE OF CAKE, SHARED A MILO WITH HER TODAYYY!!!!!!!!!!1
WHEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE
*jesuu meter explodes again*
damn... i got to get that meter fixed again...it exploded for the 4th time today.
lol
Anyway i cant wait for the photos~
here are some tt i hav *updates-forgot to put last time*
Vampire Knight

VK team ~ (lacking some(ALOT) ppl) T_T

Kaname & Yuuki Kuran

Cosfest day1 mission accomplished -> JESUKE FOUND!!! XD

Air Gear - (Wanijima Kaito)

-wif Janice...hair damn messy nia~ >.<

The heroic sai which accompanied me when my agito/akito went missing >.<

burn max!! BURN WITH THE UNLIT CIGAR!!!!!

COSFEST DAY2 mission ACCOMPLISHED -> JESUKE FOUND!!! HAPPY 22nd BDAy JESUKE!!!

=)

2009-07-04T03:26:00.005+10:00

Currently chilling in my air-conditioned room~.... damn tired, today alooooot of customers at my workplace, and all the work got piled up so fast i could barely catch up...just glad that i didnt do much funny things aside from accidentally pouring water into a japanese customer's cup of sparkling water(looks EXACTLY like normal water except dere's abit of gas), then i have to get him a new cup. lol, was glad Cindy didnt see....
anyway, today, woke up and realised i havent made kaito's whip for TGX tml. So after eating lunch, did some quick research on how to make whips then i went to the market behind my hse and got some materials for making the whip...then rush home to make the whip...and managed to complete it after finishing up the whole full roll of black duct tape, just in time to set off for work. I find it not too bad, i think it's quite ok for a rushed whip...and i really couldnt see any other budgeted alternative way to make the whip. Oh, it's longer than me when i hold it high up and leave the tail hanging...woo~

fully black!!... the duct tape looks abit..not tt nice..but nvm~

i want to go to the beach....
ahhh~

~Atarashii kazoku~

2009-06-30T07:13:00.005+10:00

I've been lazy+Busy to update lately~ >.<...wanted to update last night but i was too sleepy to do so~
Anyway Sunday was my Brother's wedding~...well actually its just the ROM, and a lunch at SSC, next to the waterside dere(yesh waterside is the kumon place i used to go). It's weird...seeing my brother getting married...it's hard to get accustomed to the thought tt i now have a sis-in-law plus she got 3 more sisters so it's like...a sudden explosion of 4 sisters...=S..
OHH and first time i dressed up + made up infront of my auntis and grandmas...then so many of them took so long to recognise me..LOL. So funny..
Monday was quite uneventful...i woke up, went to get a new hp, and then went back home to zzz...i didnt even bother to eat lunch, then i woke up, ate some stuff, then go work... I was that tired...i slept so much i kena another headache while at work..
>.< Funny, last time no matter hw much i sleep i'll never kena headache...now will liao...haiz, so sad coz cant sleep tt much ler... i feel sooo SLEEP DEPRIVED D=
BTW, alforno pizza, saporita pizza in alforno are DAMN GOOD.
I'm so glad i found new pizzas to enjoy besides hawaiian ... XD

anyway, some of my bro's wed photos...I left pratically all of the photo taking job for the photog(cousin) so these r all i have...taken wif my old HP which doesnt have very good quality..>.<

The wedding area b4 any one arrives..

A Fat Me, Happy Brother and Sis-in-law

my mum, bro&wife, my dad...(dad seemed really happy that day...)

...

2009-06-24T05:07:00.001+10:00

Am supposed to sleep...but cant.
I feel like a bastard...the more i try not to think about it, the more i will think about it and the more i feel like a bastard.
Gomen Nasai.

T_T

2009-06-22T16:14:00.006+10:00

A sad thing happened on saturday night... i knocked over my calculator, and it nudged my HD then the CALCULATOR fell to the ground. BUT... WHY ON EARTH MY HD DIE!!!
Actually not die...is the part where u connect the usb cable to loosen and fell out(in). so now it's making alot of noise sliding here and dere inside the HD. T_T
THEN I CANNOT KOPE MORE ANIME/MUSIC FROM MY FRIEND ON SUNDAY. sad....the worse is tt inside still got some stuff i havent taken out...i dunno hw to fix it...haiz...nid to find a sol...In the meanwhile i wanna get a new HD tt's about 500gb... =D
Yesterday at my workplace was so funny... actually the weekend was quite funny...somehow everyone seem to be breaking something...first a waitress dropped a coffee cup into the sink and killed some glasses(dunno hw many) then another waitress knocked over a bottle of nastro and it went splat on the floor...then i somehow..'pluck' a piece of shard out of a glass tt i'm washing, and then...yea...i got stunned. dunno y or how but i manage to PLUCK it off ..yes and there wasnt any cracks before it 'pluck' it out...then the admin women kinda killed the wine opener thingie in a funny way...LOL
I'm listening to NANA's kuroi namida...i wanna read the next book, but it isnt out yet D=...i dun remember where i stopped..omg..i should reread the whole thing...

streetfest

2009-06-17T00:02:00.006+10:00

13 june = streetfest

I BLOODY HELL OVERSLEPT.
only slept for like, 3hrs coz i was up rushing my yuna staff, was supposed to meet Jan at 9am at cityhall, but she called me at 930, i was still sleeping. the convo goes something like this:
Jan: Where are u?
me (blur...looked at clock): WAH DAMN SO SORRY I OVERSLEPT OMG OMG SRY SRY...
Jan: so you're at home
me: YESH OMG ..sorry sorry sorry...........u at cityhall ler arh?
Jan: u know what? i overslept too.

damn....then she laughed at me D=....wah lau, i tot she alr waiting for me le lor! D=
how dare u enjoy shocking me awake!!
lols
anyway, i went down in a sleepy state of mind, met her at cityhall and went tog to cineleisure to change...took our own sweet time, and after we're done, we still have more time to spend before the cosplay compe starts...so we walked around cineleisure...got this guard stopped us and say some thing about the costume and staff, and how we're supposed to call them to inform them of whatever activity going on bla bla but he didnt get any notice of it...so i pointed out that there's an event going on across the street at scape...Jan went further and pointed out that my costume is perfertly harmless and the staff is made of just cardboards and paper and it's PERFERCTLY harmless and i aint gonna go around terrorising OR smacking the ppl there... LOLS. There was no pockets in my costume so i kept my hp in the yuna sleeves and asked yamamoto to by my saikang~ XD

Anyway, i was the only FF char in the whole of streetfest and it ended up there wasnt any cosplay compe...only a small cosplay catwalk which starts at 5++pm after delaying for hours, which i totally failed at...coz all i did was walk up stage, turn one round, bow and walk down..all in about 5 secs. i didnt bother posing or doing the actions slowly. So i get alot of ppl saying 'OMG sorry sorry sorry, i missed yr performance'...haha~ The rest of the show's on Jrock...infact, the main focus was on Jrock... lols

streetfest pics

I love this banana!! i forgot what's it called >.<

my fav pic of the jrockers~ damn cool.

akito, ringo and me! lol! so out of place

my fav cosplayer there, rukia and ichigo...they look damn like the char and damn good

JESUKE AND ME!!!!! WOOOOOOT~

my attempt at being a yuna and summoning nothing.

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the process of staff making and random images...

the mess i created at my friend's room and got him into a scolding...gomen nasai

The mess at my table....>.<

the almost done staff which i was rushing the night b4 streetfest....

a totally random cute toy at my other friend's place...XD

a totally random image of joanne's food doll made of unwanted food scrapes which i named 'JO'

gyyyyaaaaa. bad mood.

2009-06-09T05:06:00.004+10:00

Woke up early morning go the the salon at the market dere cut hair...nid cut yuna's style...waaah piang the bloody guy at the salon dunno how to cut hair is it? I even showed him the pic of yuna's hair, front and back...at first he cut the hair, say my hair rebonded so v hard to get that natural-curl effect so suggested cut abit of layer to make curling it easier....ABIT OF LAYER ONLY HOR, then go cut until so thin...such damn short layers. To make it worse when i came home, told mum about it, and she just want to believe tt i cant say no to the person ...
she's like 'the prob with you is that u ALWAYS cant say no.'..
F*** lar...make my mood friggin bad...You just want to think i'm always that small little girl who never grows up. Bet tml you're gonna tell my dad what u think and get him on my nerves, giving me some unnecessary lecture again...
Damn it lar...actually is I werent wearing my specs while he's cutting my hair so the reflection from the mirror was DAMN BLUR and i cant see properly what heck he's doing lor... put so many clips, didnt even know he's choppin off so much hair until it's kinda too late(alr TOO layered ler)....i FRIGGIN COMPLAINED TO THAT GUY LAR TT HE LAYERED TOO THIN AND TOO SHORT LIAO...and he still got cheek to tell me 'what can i do now? anyway that's for the natural look...bla bla...jap ppl usually hav light fluffy flowly hair ....' pls lor...when wind blow the hair oso wont fly coz the top's so short...
FUCK HIM...and his truck load of bullshit excuses..but what can i do liao? throw temper oso no use...anyway, mums got her complains about that shop as well..i wont be going back there anymore...

Anyway, went NYP with paul today to meet Max to take my yuna stuffies and the Kaito(yazoo) wig... max forgot to bring my utau costume...he thought it wasnt mine..lols~ and i discovered something tt i should alr know, anew....MAX REALLY IS LIKE A PUPPY~ xD..
After tt went look for the yuna boots, after a looooong time, finally bought one i'm happy with at bugis...quite ex i think...$79.90 >.< then went simlim dere...paul looking for some stuffie...
quite exhausted liao...
Afterwards, went paul's hse and chill, continued the process of yuna's staff making and checked my yuna costume.
There were some errors with the yuna costume, but nothing much that i cant fix... except i hav to bring the skirt to tailor to alter the length..too long..hope can make it in time for sat nia~...and i love the kaito(yazoo) wig XD.

>.<

2009-06-07T16:36:00.002+10:00

Damn tired yesterday~ was supposed to meet max to get my taobao stuffies...but...didnt...so went to my friend's hse to chill a while b4 going for work...and heck...it was damn hectic ...i went out from behind the counter to help out with the outside coz i heard they're short of manpower...damn, wrong move...i didnt even have time to take any sip of water D=... deadddd tired.
Anyway, friday we went to watch Blood the last vampire...ultra let down... i think the director dunno how to direct, or whatever he planned is just plain sucky. ALOT of stuff r quite random, and some stuff doesnt make sense D=...i just wasted $10..but yea, the lead actress was pretty...i forgot her name >.<, she acted as saya.
Now i'm listening to K-on's 'dont say you r lazy'....i think i like tt song alot >.<
I'm hooked on to K-on....K-ON ROCKS!!!XD MIO ROCKS!!! YUI ROCKS!!!! XD I seem to like alot of animes/manga tt deals with music alot >.< eg: NANA, Nodame cantabile, K-on...etc...
BUT THEY R NICE...

Lost in thought~

2009-06-04T06:34:00.002+10:00

Time REALLY flies....didnt really wanna use this cliche quote but, it REALLY felt like that. Now i'll be saying 'i'm going to aussie next month' and when next month comes, it'll b 'I'm going aussie (insert no) weeks/days from now'. I'm sad...i looked forward to flying but now ... not that much. I mean, hey, afterall, all my friends are here...the life i've been leading for the past 20 years is in here...but that doesnt mean i'm dreading to go aussie, infact, i'm still quite excited...just not as much as b4.
I should be flying on the 26th....cant really confirm it yet since the tickets isnt in my hands yet. but, yea that's the plan. I wanna take a photo wif everyone~ ok most peeps b4 i go...but....i nid a camera...or at least a NON SOT phone(unlike my current one) with a higher than average camera, so i dont have to specially buy a camera. Any model to recommand? not too ex though....

shld i be happy or sad?

2009-05-31T02:44:00.003+10:00

Slept damn late yesterday..today can barely wake up...even when max called to say my taobao stuffies reached liao, i still can half zzz half talk to him...and YAY i'm damn happy about it..think that's why i can remember the convo~...only properly woke when cheryl's already at the lift of my hse =.=...anyway, shes also quite stoney, coz apparently she slept late too~
so we stoned a while in my room before we went to bake cookies~! we baked conflake cookies, which turned out quite good, and the process was soooooo much faster than making butter cookies~... i think i'll just bake conflake cookies when i want to eat liao~ dun nid go buy liao~ ^^ kekeke~
then then then.... i received a message from cindy she says 'just to let u know, we have enough manpower..., from june onwards we dun nid yr service thanks for your help...'....summarise it in 2 words ' YOU'RE FIRED'.
WHAT THE HECK LAR... I KNEW IT..THAT AUNTY HATES ME...i dunno whether to feel happy or sad...i didnt really like kumon tt much, so i was planning to leave if i can find sth better, but on the other hand, if i cant find anything else then i'll only have kumon as my source of $$'

A few reasons i came up with ..to why i kena kicked out...
a) i talk too much
b) i scribbled bad stuff about kumon in jap on my 'homework' and the auntie saw it (apparently she might understand it too)
c) i am too bo chap about the kids
d) i suck damn badly at teaching
e) when a kid tells me 'i hate kumon' and i answered 'dun worry, we ALL hate it..just put up with it until u go home'...then she must have overheard
f) i am always late
g) i drew on the erasers and fold frogs with those 'happy card' when i grow damn bored
h) they really dont nid anymore people liao

Oops.. i think ....the answer is ALL OF THE ABOVE nia~...>.< but cant be sure...since...my other friends dere oso do SOME of the things......
Anyway, when i went for my other work at a restaurant today... this is what happened
cindy: tml u coming rite?
me: yea
(pause)
cindy: can u work on monday?
me: yea
(pause)
(cindy looks at some planner)
cindy: can u come work on wed, thurs, friday, sat and sunday too?
me: o.O er...yea................thurs and friday prob not free though...

LOL...god's will? i get fired at one job and the other increases...
and yah...both kumon and the other job's got some one called cindy...except one's fat and one's thin
anyway~ i'm quite tired... work today sapped alot of energy from me...>.<

coscon

2009-05-27T04:04:00.003+10:00

23may was coscon... Went to meet up wif timo early in the morning for work~ late again coz we didnt know how to get to UE2 from bugis...then about 2++ we ended work, i got timo to STOP working...and he kept saying he felt damn bad about asking to leave early >.<. Met paul and his cousin and set off to Suntec for the convention.
There wasnt much stuff to see in the convention...quite squeezy and quite disappointing... whats up wif all the audition competition? no offence but i find that really really really boring and uninteresting...furthermore, no mac lappys for me to check out. so we walked one round about the convention then, went out. We went Pizza hut for our ultra late lunch, timo looked really in a sour mood, but i think he got better after his cousin came and joined us for that pizza lunch~... long time no eat pizza liao, tastes nice...but quite filling nia~.
After that, went back to the convention, i met up wif my friends...and...SAW JESUKE ZOMG. I <3 her mukuro....>.< damn shuai~

I wanted to do mukuro or chrome last time der...but now see her mukuro liao...T_T...NO MORE CONFIDENCE...dun wan fight wif her, she wins hands down...>.< Not that i have anything against her... i'm her FAN.
anyway, i <3 her kaname and howl too~
now...if only she was a guy...XD...

Janice pushed me over to her, and told her 'camwhore wif her with your handphone, and post it on your blog later' LOL... she did take a pic wif me but i doubt she'll post it...i looked like crap shit lor... tired and sleepy and never put make up at all...

some pics...mostly kapo from the sgcafe der..

Domo!! so cute~ XD

HAHAHAHAHA.... i dunno what char is this but...looks like mcdonald's brother? XD

Kanda @ coscon~
I luv this one out of all tt i see b4 in SG...

Jesuke as mukuro at coscon!!!
Damn cool~..

this pic not coscon der
it's jesu's photoshoot as mukuro~
DAMN SHUAI~ <3
y isnt she a guy? >.<

^^

2009-05-19T13:32:00.006+10:00

DEAD tired... i had an entire 7hrs of sleep but i'm still sleepy...and to top it off, i am still not used to sleeping in this roomT_T...i want my old room back!!!!!!!!!
Anyway, latest updates~
-Sun-
Went out to celebrate Joanne's birthday in advance!!! I woke late, at 12pm...we were supposed to meet at 12 at east coast park's mac so i ended up 2hrs late T_T...and guess what? I'm not the latest !!! LOL...Jo, Jeff and Nick was there alr, then i reached, followed by Timo, collins and Kit who brought the bday cake for jo ...then we waited for kelwin. While waiting, jo kept wanting the eat the cake and she just pluck off one of the cookies on top of the cake and bit it o.O... then the rest of us were like, "JO!! we havent even lit the candles yet!!!' so she put that half bitten piece of cookie back to the top of the cake >.< ...and ended up taking it away and took another bite XD... so we just let her have her cookie and tried to cover the lost cookie part with the 'happybirthday' sign. DAMN funny...The cake was already 'sweating' when Kelwin finally arrived....AND we finally get to sing the bday gal her bday song...BUT she went to cut the cake while we were halfway singing LOLS...Too steammed from the heat alr~ i guess XD.
After tt we went cycling...only Jo and Jeff bladed... nick and timo use a double cyclist bike..(dunno what's tt called) coz timo CANT cycle. Hell i've not cycled for like, 5 years... i think. so my legs dieded and i felt the impact fully when i'm working in the restaurant later >.< ouch. It was a really fun day...had a blast... and did/seen lots of retarded stuff i havent seen for like..damn long..XD.

Jo scratching 'Jo the rocker' on the cake XD

(JO THE ROCKER)!!! (blurred coz my phone cam sux)
Can u tell where's the missing cookie? XD

DAMNeD uneven cut up cake...LOLS...shouldnt hav handed her the knife when we were still singing the bday song....

-Mon-
Woke up late...but not late enough to be late...but i ended up meeting paul and timo for work late anyway ...and worst of all... it rained =.= ....then we took the bloody bus 32 which almost froze me into a giant chunk of ice coz it took a damned 1hr OVER to reach UE2...u noe, i was drenched coz of the bloody rain even though i had an umbrella. WE could have taken the train and reached half an hr early if we took the train u noes >.<...spent an agonising 6 whole hrs dere marking kiddo's papers nonstop...was really tired and hungry after the whole thing ends at 830pm...i was telling paul tt we're like the little match-selling gal except we ARENT selling match stick...we're marking kiddo's paper which never seem to finish. After tt we went to eat at burger king...wanted to eat at pizza hut initially but...GAH ...it was closed. To think that we actually walked from bugis to suntec for THAT lols.

Damn tired...tiredd...later still got to go work somemore. WHEN WILL MY TAOBAO ITEMS REACH NIA~

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2009-05-16T02:55:00.007+10:00

Today went work LATE again ...go to kumon again...but not much stuff to do dere so ended up playing with origami and paper froggie for about half of the time with timo...then the auntie came over at about 630pm and let us go off although we were supposed to end at 7pm >.< i think it was timo who said tt coz we were playing with paper froggie too much till she want to come to SHOO us away LOL.
After tt me,timo,paul and paul's friend went to Park mall's sakae sushi for dinner...we ate the dinner buffet which is like, $20 for each... not tt bad..since i gobbled down quite alot~ was pretty hungry nia~...that sakae is actually not that crowded.. maybe coz it's quite secluded bah...anyway... we get 2mochis and 2 ice-cream strawberry mochis for dessert ... i tot it was only limited to 2 dessert per person..but we had 4 each ...soo....>.< whee? XD
Anyway, Jo came over then we met up with Jeff at plaza sing for.......WOLVERINE!!!!
it was a nice show...>< but the starting seems kinda...abit too long nia~..i heard star treks was nicer..i wanna try tt too...and..and...GUGU THE CAT zomg..until now still havent watched>.<...the cat so damn cute...

WE were bored...so we actually went to stack the plates according to the color >.<
and YESH we ate over 30++ plates~ not counting dessert >.<

sad-ed...

2009-05-15T14:12:00.004+10:00

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I may not b able to continue on to my jap int3 ...coz they have a damned 1 week break after the int2 exam...but..oh wells...i can still take jlpt4 after i returned as a private candidate ^^...woots~!
Next week's my final final int2 test...i SHOULD really study alr..if not i keep getting crappy results like 72/100...u think its high? it isnt...coz... only 7 lessons worth of things to study...and.....i....got ....i think the lowest in the class >.<
I realised i always always have tonnes of stupid careless mistakes happening during tests..eg: re-write the SAME kanji as what they wrote when we're supposed to translate it to hiragana...T_T
I nid to make yuna's earrings + necklace...i just realised she has 3 earrings..>.< tt's still alright..make-able but... NECKLACE? kill me pls...I dont want to go some jewellery shop and ask them customise coz i have feeling it'll take damn long and it'll burn a giant hole in my pocket unnecessarily... someone pls pls gimme some idea how to make nia~ or i'll hav to resort to cardboards WHICH i dun really want.

The long one is damn obvious but hidden by her hair...there's 2 more~
>.<

The necklace...>.< any idea how to make?

late night/early morning updates~

2009-05-14T07:03:00.002+10:00

HEEY... finally finally got a jobbie!!! AND SURPRISINGLY TIMO ACTUALLY IS WORKING TOO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! LOL!!!
XD Tuesday was the 1st day at work~...it's nothing that great actually...just marking the homework for a bunch of brats and doing some bit of tutoring. It's an OK job, provided that IF they r well behaved~. Paul brought timo and me over...that place...was so damn close to my old hse XD. working hrs? not too long...pay? normal... but i confirm wont get more than 500 this mth. The best part of this job is, like paul called it 'freelance job'...so i can actually choose to work alot or not so much~...making it waaayy easier to plan for cosplay events, outings...bla bla...
anyway, since i couldnt sleep, i wanna list out those stuff i want/need to get~ including the stuffies for cosplay AGAIN...except that these, i actually nid to spent $$ on...so i'm putting my budget~ >.<

A NEW HANDPHONE(trade in bahzz)- 200??
A mp3 - $100(cheapo 1 will do)
A psp - $250??? ( if getting this i'll skip my mp3)
Camera - $250
luggage - $150?? (enuff???)
Winter Coat - $150????(shld b enuff)

~cosplay~
*Shugo Chara - Hoshina Utau*
-short blonde wig with 2 long ponytail clip ons - $70
-long black socks - $15

*Air Gear - Kaito*
-white singlet - $5 (i want the budget ones)

*Final Fantasy X - Yuna*
-yuna's wand materials - $30
-shoes (one that can b used for kaito & kaname)- $60

*Kingdom Hearts - Kairi*
-reddish wig shoulder length long - $70 (maybe get locally...)
-shoe cover - $30
-costume - $100

Ehhhhtoooo..... total amt i'll need would be...$1480???
WHERE ON EARTH WILL THIS MUCH POP OUT ARH?!
nvm i'll get the more impt ones 1st... =.=

Flaring of some emotions~

2009-05-14T06:59:00.003+10:00

*warning-not for the anti-emo ppl*

500am, and I still couldn’t fall asleep. I never really posted all I wanted to, all those feelings which I wanted to say through the past month, the past weeks…and instead let them get bottled up and die silently alongside time like how I used to deal with all the bad/sad stuff in the past. I don’t really want a few certain someone to know about this…but I don’t care much anymore…. coz now, I keep thinking…thinking…of you. I guess the sadness never really will fade away, although now, I can go to those places, I was afraid to even see, those with many many memories of you.

I’m pouring them out …almost all that I felt that period of time…I can vaguely remember some, but I nid to just bare them all out…at least, as much as I can.

It’s funny how I never knew how deep my feelings can grow in such a short time, its also funny how I never thought I’ll feel so low, so much yearning and sadness even though the hours we spent together is so little, it’s pitiful. I still remember thinking ‘will I ever get past this and move on? Will I even move on at all??’

That day, when I realized the answer instinctively, subconsciously, I should have left. It’s really the funniest how I could ever ever have to get over this before its even over. I wanted to be strong, I wanted to think clearly and choose the best way out, but those irritating feelings kept clouding over. Ended up I didn’t see what I really should do immediately right after I realized the truth subconsciously. I kept denying. Ended up I couldn’t get over this on my own, and had some really really great support from someone. Ended up wondering if I did anything wrong or was it your problem.

I have generally got past the worst. Looking back, I’ll admit I’m an idiot …for not realizing immediately even when the answer was staring at me right in the face. Yes, indeed, you are busy with your new life. Indeed, you are living at an inconvenient distance…….but…the answer was damn obvious.

I’m emo? I think too much? Why do I cry? I throw these questions back to you, and you’ll never ever be able to feel the answers 100%, being the way you are.

Even now, I believe you wont see this. I bet you cant even remember the link of my blog…coz u cant even be bothered…and that’s y I posted.

30% completed.......

2009-05-09T02:31:00.002+10:00

...and 70% more of my stuff to deal with....most of the furnitures are in place liao~ left 2 drawers liddat~ 1 nid to wait for my brother to clear, the other i wan go look~ XD.
Tonight is the 1st night i'm spending in this 'new' room~... i still keep wanting to go to my old room sia~ haiz nid to get used to this room..hi room, yoroshiku ne~.

Anyway, today went Ehub, met ligen....played arcade a while and realised max is a genius at Jubeat...T^T ..then met up with zoey, slacked about a while...then she have to go work liaos~...OH sth funny happened~ i still cant stop laughing when i think about it... Ligen and I were on our way back to find zoey after getting her some tidbits from NTUC, then got this chinese guy tourist and his daughter came and asked for the swimming pool...The whole conversation was in chinese

Tourist: Excuse me, do u know where's the swimming pool?
Ligen: er....at....at...*ponders awhile*
Ligen: *turns and look at the tourist* ...where is the swimming pool?
Tourist: o.O

LOL........... so funny...although i do know what liggy meant lar..coz the tourist could mean wild wild wet, but could oso be the other one (i dunno where) but...zomg..LOL.

T____T

2009-05-07T15:01:00.001+10:00

Remember my 2nd last post before this?
Yay!!! paid the agent for my taobao items today liao!! ~~and just nice~ i got a place for a jobbie today!! whee~!! XD...friday start work liao~ >.<~~
THAT IDIOT CALLED AND SAY DUN WAN LIAO...
they wan give the place to perm part timer
i shall go emo and grow a situ farm T^T

HINI Flu Outbreak~

2009-05-06T13:07:00.003+10:00

Just read the news article on it online...
http://www.sgclub.com/singapore/h1n1_flu_oubreak_160030.html
Yar...I've nothing better to do than this lols~...anyway the thermometers are getting SOLD OUT in pratically every shop in the world, including schools. WTH??? Dont most ppl already have their themometers during tt period when SARS hit? it's only like, 5-6years ago..=.=" I still have my thermometers and the batteries arent even dead after so long....zomg.
I'm waking up with alot of sneezing lately.... no i'm not sick...more like the dust from my house increased coz of the 'renovation work' lols.

whee~

2009-05-06T01:28:00.004+10:00

Yay!!! paid the agent for my taobao items today liao!! and just nice~ i got a place for a jobbie today!! whee~!! XD...friday start work liao~ >.<
Today dinner went Ikea to eat!! i missed their poached salmon >.<...damn nice hehe~
and...I ATE ANOTHER CHEESECAKE!! lols hurray for the chance but boo for the fats..
Yest went out accompany liggy make his passport... 1st time see someone kena forgotten by the counters LOL... the number jumped from ***5 to ***7 ( i dun remember exactly the no)...his no was ***6...it TOTALLY MISSED OUT HIS NUMBER LOR HAHAHAHAHAHA....damn funny~
anyway.. what i wanted to do is update my cosplay to-buy-list~

Here goes~

*Shugo Chara - Hoshina Utau*
-short blonde wig with 2 long ponytail clip ons
-black shoes ( very court shoes like)
-long black socks
~~-dress costume~~

*Air Gear - Kaito*
~~-long silver wig~~

-white singlet
~~-black jacket~~

-blue jeans
-similar belt
~~-black shoes~~

*Final Fantasy X - Yuna*
-cut hair!
-yuna's wand
-shoes(or shoe cover)
~~-costume~~

*Kingdom Hearts - Kairi*
-reddish wig shoulder length long
~~-keyblade~~
-shoes(or shoe cover)
-costume

now shld be easier for me to see what i lack~ XD

The last night in my room T_T

2009-04-29T01:56:00.006+10:00

Just finished packing up my room, can say its about..erm...80% packed...the rest of the packing shall leave till another appropriate time...Tonight shall be the last night i get to stay in my room...Tml the workers would come and invade my room to repaint it...and after it's done..my brother'll get his furniture/stuffies in and then it'll no longer be mine to live in T_T.
After that, the workers will invade my brother's room, knock off the built in stuffies, repaint it, bla bla bla...then i gotta get some furnitures inside coz it'll b totally barren and move my stuffies in...ARGH.** ALOT OF WORK I HOPE SOMEONE HELPS ME GEEEHHH** but nvm =.=
Anyway, i'm enjoying how clean and empty my room is right now~...Coz tml.. i'll have to sleep with my parents..meaning...GOT TO GO BED EARLY AND WAKE EARLY LIKE A GOOD LITTLE GIRL ....lols

My table was NEVER so empty... it used to be piled with stuff till i cant find where i put my stuffies.

Ahhh~ the empty side of my bed...used to be filled with stuff eg:BOOKS, bags and more books.

My once-chapalang-jammed-horror cupboard.

And now... this is how it is outside..at the space between the living room and dining area...

Shiok ya? my brother's and my stuffies... he's still adding more to the pile~ lalala~

THIS..is basically ALLLLLL MY STUFFIES!!!! bwahahahaha...XD i'm a chapalang person.

Dun forget my room's ONLY 80% cleared~.
I'll seriously nid help putting them back...or else i'll take 2weeks to do so =X

Sleepy + Outing~

2009-04-26T03:13:00.002+10:00

Today, woke at 930am...was supposed to wake half hour earlier, but was just simply sleepy, coz slept at 3.30am last night~. Headed straight to Yishun to meet Zoey and Yamamoto to play badminton, but yamamoto was LATEEEEEEE coz he realised he had to eat breakfast =.= , so i went Zoey's hse a while, look at KHR's posters online...saw alot of Mukuro Dokuros...XD(hehehehe) then Zoey went nuts over her Hibari and Hibird...reminded me of yesterday..she spammed the Hibird song for 24hrs till i feel like throttling her >.<
After 'playing' badminton liao, (for that few minutes) i was melting...the sun too hot.. then we went to Clark Quay met up with Gin, Ligen, Yuuki, Akira, Shit and Miyuki. We went to Dhoby Ghaut play arcade~ i tried playing NX wif yuuki and realised... my legs r damn damn slow like hell...cannot keep up wif my eyes D=...i see all the arrows clearly but....I SUCKED BIG TIME >.< oh wells.
Anyway after that... went back clark quay again, chill, ate dinner then went home... I'm sure the others had loads of fun. I felt abit sian-ed at the ending of the day due to tiredness...dun wish to talk/play too much...
On the way home i was zzzing..wake up ler, felt quite emo, coz i remembered some stuff... some one that have gradually (or was it suddenly?) seemed so foreign in my life. Wishing i could turn back time and relive tt part of life again...oh wells. No point wishing for the impossible now.

SIAN...I dun want to switch~

2009-04-22T18:12:00.004+10:00

Slept really late coz i was finally watching blood+. Then this morning couldnt wake up, instead ended up drifting in and out of sleep...if not for my hp ringing about 10 times coz of sms/calls and my mum barging into my room and saying..er..stuffs which i barely remember...i'd have slept right through till 2pm.
I nid to pack up my messy room liao...not for the sake of being neat, but i have to move to my brother's room (smaller). I had a headache trying to plan out how to put my piano + desk + bed + wardrobe ALL into my brother's tiny room.. in the end it just sorted out itself...but ALOT of works gonna needed...the built in cupboard gotta be killed T_T.. i kind of liked it der lor...but haiz.
OH ... havent said why i have to move over. It's coz hes gonna get married!! and they'll nid a bigger room in the meanwhile for both of them, which is my room. Somewhere in June they'll officially b married~...but before that, they r gonna repaint/redeco my room to make it theirs...T_T been living in this room for 10 years liao...i'll miss my room. haiz.
The switch will take some weeks...really not up to it. Packing the room's just the first step and..now~..i'm feeling really lazy.. i dont want to pack all the chapalang stuff in my room D=...so troublesome. I dont want to switch rooms either...but..bo bian...my bro's current room too small for 2 ppl lers.
Somethings u gotta do, u JUST gotta do~..

~Travel around SG~

2009-04-16T01:29:00.003+10:00

Today woke up at 930am!! but was still late...coz nid reach liggy hse at 10am! Ended up reaching at sometime near 11am...after tt, he taught me DOTA!! zomg!!! i learnt sth new~! Max was supposed to teach me der but...he not free >.< anywayy liggy was a good teacher...and i think i know more about dota lers,just tt i nid TONNES more pratices and basically I suck at it.
Then... i helped him pluck his eyebrows~! see see?! so now his brows a little thinner, neater and...got nicer shape lers! I spent about an hr doing it, coz i aint good with it XD...i shall pratice more~ then maybe 1 day i'll become pro~!! Try to finish in 10mins!! haha!!! kidding lol...although i really wan to try achieving it in 10mins. BUTbutbut best of all...I GOT KINGDOM HEARTS CHAIN OF MEMO!!! WHEE~ after so long sia >.< can play liao, coz liggy was kind enuff to lend me his gameboy advance XD...
After tt, went to AMK find yuuki..take yuuki kuran's wiggy from her, met up wif kakashit and played a few rounds of jubeat..^^ then yuuki went home and liggy, shit and I went walking around town. After tt, went to church of st marys of the angels then back home. WAH LAU the bus ride..so long..and tiring. I fell asleep for most of the journey...so did kakashit and ligen...we were supposed to get off at yio chu kang but ALL OF US OVERSLEPT LOL...and ended up in yishun~...i woke up and found tt i had been squishing ligen's shoulder wif my head o.o felt like pillow sia~...Didnt know i was THAT tired...to not notice that until i woke.
Haiz... i gtg..tml is another long day~

~ Shiro Ame~

2009-04-15T02:16:00.004+10:00

Woots~!! finally got my Jrock photoshoot photos liaoZ!!! >.<
My first Jrock photoshoot!!! XD
It was a private photoshoot taken on the sunday right after kurobara...at expo!! was quite fun...although i was pretty shy..and didnt talk alot >.<...
I hope got theres a second time^^ whee~!

~tennis~

2009-04-10T13:31:00.002+10:00

oh yea...the day before yest..which is...WED!! max, ligen, Zoey and situ came over to play tennis~! On the way to my hse, we saw a Lion's home for the elders!! LOL...(we have a friend called lion) and all of them were taking pics frantically when the bus stops infront of the old folk's home...lolololll.
We slacked around in my room a while, then ligen passed me his dota~!! yay!! yea i know i used to hate tt game alot, coz of alot of ppl who loves dissing others unnecessarily during gaming and the fact tt i just pure sucks at it, but after watching others play awhile and max made it sound so damn interesting liao orh~ i feel like playing oso~
We played tennis ...then someone decided to cosplay a merlion and pulled off the water fountain wonderfully =.=....Max and I wanted to play longer de but after a while, the others want to go back 'cui aircon' coz the weather's boiling hot, and they dont want to become a black Agito, black mushroom and a black ikuto, so we returned and chilled in my room for a while~ then i discovered my nebo card with ALOT of coupons for arcade~!!! WHEE JU---*erhem* ARCADE TIME! but sadly only ligen can stay and go Ehub wif me play arcade >.<
Anyway, i showed ligen the cute rabbits at my hse dere then he decided to buy rabbit food for them...so we took quite some time to reach home after sending the others off... and then makan dinner...and...... GO EHUB AT DOWNTOWN EAST WHEE~
BUT sadly only played 2 rounds of jubeat (1 for each of us) then we went to play other games... coz..right after ligen plays, 7 more ppl went to tap T_T and the arcade was gonna close in an hrs time >.<
Anyway, it was a fun and tiring day...XD and i waaasss HAPPY i didnt throw away the vouchers when i first got it...coz tt time i really didnt think i'd go back to playing arcade again..(it's a fun place but also a place to waste $$$ de...>.<)

~Kingdom of Jellyfishes~

2009-04-10T13:14:00.003+10:00

Yesterday went to spam jubeat games wif ligen at AMK hub!!! After 3 rounds of jubeat (both liggy and i de~)then kakashit join in and...he cant go into the arcade...coz he's got totally NO change of clothes..then we accompany him to mac's for lunch...haha, he's so nice to disturb XD...really like hamster liddat. After lunch went to back to spamming more jubeat, while shit went home but cant really play long...since i gtg to jap class...then after tt i went joanne's hse a short while and returned home at 1230am...kinda tired.
I'm bored now, later gonna go tailor dere and Jurong East, spam more jubeat with max and co...dunno how to count the credits le sia~ liggy's credit still exists in my card but dunno hw much...and Jellyfishes are cute...they bloop and flop around and floats here and there in the ocean...
Ok..that was random...but it's true~

List of stuffies..

2009-04-01T03:48:00.004+11:00

Been going out alot lately >.<.... i'm looking for a job, best if it pays $7 and above per hr...>< but cant ask for too much now...
I nid to save up!! i'm going to do 3 char for cosfest omg...so many!! gonna get my stuff from taobao...dunno how to balance them sia..>.< so i decide to write them out, even if i hav them already and slowly get the items- make myself, buy or borrow or somehow find them before i forget...

*Shugo Chara - Hoshina Utau*
-short blonde wig with 2 long ponytail clip ons
-black shoes ( very court shoes like)
-long black socks
-dress costume

*Air Gear - Kaito*
-long silver wig
-white singlet
-black jacket
-blue jeans
-similar belt
-black shoes

*Final Fantasy X - Yuna*
-cut hair!
-yuna's wand
-shoes(or shoe cover)
-costume

*Kingdom Hearts - Kairi*
-reddish wig shoulder length long
-keyblade
-shoes(or shoe cover)
-costume

i bet kaito's going to be the char tt i spent the least on...>.<

DMC!!! XD

2009-03-28T05:39:00.012+11:00

Went out with Max, Shiki, and Ligen today to watch DMC!!! YAY FINALLY!!!I met Max and Ligen at AMK first, go check out the contacts... but i was late again!!! wah lau...now their impression of me is tt i always late...T_T..
AMK there still got sell red contacts, but the cheapest is at $98....T_T... then played arcade XD havent played arcade in a looooooooong while, everything oso rusty le...>.<.. after that, chiong to Dhoby Ghaut met shiki...and WATCHED DMC!! OMG...DAMN NICE LAR... i dun mind re watching!!!! XD.... their songs r like, nice too...but the lyrics abit..erm...>.< nvm the song sounds nice can liao XD. Then kakashit joined us... felt kinda bad didnt invite him for movie...but... but...but.....>.<
After tt, went bugis wif shiki, bought some accessories b4 heading to find joanne and co!!! I almost lost my way to her hse.. suddenly tanah merah felt so far away from her hse sia....>.<..... and her room is...literally cooking us alive, since her air con SPOILT...DX... n i wore long sleeve and jeans!!!
In the end, we chilled outside her room, playing game(i forgot game name again..the one with 2 guitars, a mic and a set of drums)...XD i played the guitar till my hand felt super pain... then jo and jeff did sth funny... they tried playing all 4 instruments with them 2 only...Jo took the mic and the bass guitar, jeff took the drums and the guitar...(imagine him smacking the drums with the guitar!!! LOL) omg lar!! N THEY COMPLETED 71% OF THE SONG b4 dying LOL... damn funny XD...
Tml is kurobara... nid to wake early...n it's now 3am..hair still havent dry...hope can wake up early tml>.<...

FMP photoshoot

2009-03-22T22:55:00.006+11:00

OH! here r some of the photoshoot pics...from my FMP photoshoot on thurs...

Chidori Kaname and Sagara Sousuke

At the...fish market??o.O

Sagara: i see DANGER with the bread...
Chidori: *^%#^*%$$^%&!!!!

Chidori: Stop trying to make the place explode with those paranoid thoughts u have!!

Emo-ing

emoing...again

Fancy a hair cut? =D

DAMN U AND THOSE NON EXISTENT DANGERS!!!

Sagara Sousuke in action

Hunt for sousuke...

Killing sousuke

Fun shot...

Fun shot 2

Chidori kaname with....chidori??

updates~~

2009-03-22T22:26:00.002+11:00

Today's the 1st day spent at home after my piano exam...been playing reeeaally hard immediately after the exam >.< tanoshii~.... Wed went to watch movie, thurs was my photoshoot, and friday!! met up with max, ligen, kakashit, gin and akira....at 2pm++ at orchard, wanted to eat the sakae sushi buffet and watch movie... we thought the buffet ends at 3pm, made me damn disappointed, but then realised it starts at 3pm instead!!! LOL damn funny...
Anyway we went dhoby ghaut instead and bought the movie tickets first ... initially wanted to watch DMC but got some ppl underaged, kena checked and exposed DX...so ended up watching race to witch mountain>.< not tt bad lar, but I STILL WANNA WATCH DMC!!!
Then after tt went to the long awaited sakae sushi!! Ligen damn evil lar!! wanted to order 6 red plates all jellyfish...still purposely eat infront of me somemore...then gin gotta join in even though he dont eat!! what kinda reason is that.....=.= MEANIE!! Is Jellyfish THAT nice anyway? it only tasted ok to me leh... lucky never order all 6 jellyfish coz i wanted salmon sashimi XD...
Then sat, i met up with our team's rima... go Haru order her costume and my chains which commited suicide...met up with Ligen, Kakashi and Kimberly...ligen damn shy, dun dare ask about his costume =.=...after tt, went cineleisure walk walk saw a potential job to try...but in the end cannot coz they want perm staff...T_T I NID A JOBBIE...(preferably wif high $$...got lobang mah?)...then wanted to go great world city check out some stuff, but dunno how go dere...so went dhoby ghaut instead...play arcade and eat dinner......kakashit screwed up at jubeat, hence killing our 'hopes and dreams' according to ligen LOL..

FMP!!!

2009-03-20T04:54:00.004+11:00

Today met James, Ligen, and Sam(James's Photog) for a private Full Metal Panic photoshoot. Dammmn tired.. went out yest watch departures until late late at vivo city... and had to rush for the last bus home wif james and kakashi, and when i reached home and finished all that i need and want to do, it was 3am liao...so today i overslept, woke and 10am and was late!!! >.<

Realised tt i shld hav told ligen to reach at 12pm today...he reached at about 11am and waited for us for....45mins?? >.< PAISEH....I was also supposed to wear blue contacts but i forgot about THAT TOO OMG.

James smeared coffee and ribena on ligen's white shirt today XD, and it really works!! Cheaper than the cosmetic blood somemore!! not 100% like real blood coz of the small green bunch of coffe power patches, but it's solved easily... but i'd laugh if he cant wash off the stain XD LOL
We went to a hell lot of places today, maybe only a few in reality but seems like ALOT... took alot of photos, and i came back home on the last train and the last bus AGAIN...was veeeeery tired..legs felt like breaking and my brain's a blur...the only thing keeping me(torturing me) awake is my hair, i'm waiting for it to dry..DX.

Anyway, After we ate dinner at some hawker near the photoshooting area a group of aunties, i think is the owner of a stall, asked us (i was still wearing the blue wig) ' that real hair ma? waaaa... tot u from some weird overseas country lehh!!' ...some where along that line lar..LOL...then when we were on our way out, got this little girl turned around, saw me, and went shocked and goes 'WAH' damn loudly in my face...LOL... so cute.. funny...XD...but wah lau ehhh ppl keep saying i cosplaying sailor moon...until i hate sailor moon at the end of the day le lar...T_T.

OH YEA PIANO EXAM IS OVER WHEEEEE~THIS MARKS A TRUE BREAK FROM THE EXAMS/PROJECTS MARATHON!!! lets see.. i had, IAD project3, IAD FYP, Diploma show, Piano theory exam grade 6, 7,8 and piano pratical exam grade 6 & 8... all in 2007 - NOW...and i hope i didnt fail... i hope i didnt screw up too badly.. it'd be a HAPPY MIRACLE if i passed...i dun wanna retake le...my piano teacher'll 'throw me into the dustbin'(her exact words) if i fail.....
I shall post up some of the pics of the photoshoot when it's out... feeling zonked out now..
oyasumi~

~lala~

2009-03-07T05:00:00.002+11:00

Finally today i get to use the piano for exam... must pay $25 for 1/2 hr for 2 fridays sia... XD but hey i realised the keys are easier to press compared to the last piano i used for my grade 6 exam last yr...COOL! telling the tuning auntie about how horrid the last piano was, was the rite thing to do afterall!! XD...but sadly i still played like crap today... partly due to tireness and the fact tt i still miss someone although still sad and unhappy.....cant really concentrate properly.
Anyway afterwards I came home.. chat on msn, wanted to zzz, but no chance to, coz of some stuff... then ate dinner and went out to meet Jo, Jeff, Timo, nick and kelwin...chilled for a while at some coffee shop in the area then went to Jo's hse... and.... YAY I GOT DMC4!!! can play after my exams liao XD..but got 1 giant prob.. my lappy laaaaaggggsss DX... T___T

Pissed OFF.

2009-03-04T22:12:00.003+11:00

As the title says.
I'm friggin pissed off today
AND really hurt.
How many times must u do this to me?
A few times these 2 weeks foretells a whole story
Furthermoe it's the almost always the exact same reason each time
I'm sick of it.
It may mean nothing to u, but it means ALOT to me.
Coz I'm getting the msg tt u dun wan to see me anymore
Not just from today but other occasions too
I aint gonna cry over this anymore.
Fine.
So be it.
Call me childish or whatsoever, but this is how i feel.
I wont see u anymore until u say u want to.
Neither will i bother calling u.

A series of unfortunate events ....sad-ed

2009-03-02T05:11:00.007+11:00

I woke up feeling kind of gong gong...u noe, like 'what is the date today? what am i supposed to do? Am i even in my room?' kinda feeling... n ended up...really being goooongggggg today. Was supposed to meet yuuki and co to go Alice 88 today. Totally forgot i was supposed to meet yuuki at her art sch 1st, so i forgot to ask tt sotong when and where shld i meet her first, and that sotong apparently forgot about telling me when her class ends too =.= so ended up she walked arnd bugis for whole 2 hrs, bored...lol.. then, on my way to bugis i made another biiiiggg realisation..... I forgot to bring teck hui's vcd. Geeeee.... and i was so eager to return it lars.....i want to kick myself sia.
Anyway, about 3pm after meeting with ALL ppl, including latecomers...decided to set off le.... then the gods above decided it's shower time. Sooooo becoz of that uber super duper heavy and looonngggg rain, we NEVER got arnd to visit Alice88, which was the aim of today...and ended up playing arcade. SIAN LAR.
Worst ... someone, tt very impt someone, tt one i've never got arnd to meet for a week liao... nid to reach home early for dinner suddenly(although tt some1 stayed with us when we ate dinner). BAD MOOD LAR. haiz.... feels like today's the continuation of yest... where 4 irritating event/news fell to me.
Yeah... a series of unfortunate events.
and i still am the main char.
Trapped
Eeks

Then it dawned on me.......
to dun b so pessimistic...
always look on the bright sight of life...
so that i can feel better and live happier....

so i think
and think
and think
and thhhiiiinnnnnkkkk
and wrecked my brain juices
dried them up and poured in the refills
and came up with 2 optismistic thing
guess what?
1) i finally get to meet tt some1 today (but tt some1 cant stay long)
2) i finally reached home early @ 930pm today(coz pratically everyone else couldnt stay late) .

how happy is that?

siaaannnn arrrrrhhh

2009-02-28T06:46:00.007+11:00

Was supposed to meet Lucyfer for ice skating today, havent skated for eons liao, so was a bit nervous....but lucky i set off late, i just reached the bus stop outside my hse n he called, telling me tt the kallang skating rink is under renovation...he was sooooo disappointed >.<
Sian lor.
In then end... nev meet him...(sad-ed).
I went to the beach...walk walk walk...then decided to go suntec to look for yuna's boots... then, kena minor headache...nvm, i heck care until later, i feel giddy, a little like puking and a bit floaty..(yesh jellyfishy). then i went home and realise i got fever of 37.5. (WTH! I bet..NUUU i'm SURE that's y i screwed up my exam pieces this morning during lesson...right? RIGHT??) Friggin irritating .... but still ok lar..not tt high. It'll go away bah.
After dinner, went out to meet joanne and co... the first time someone tells me not to be puntual ...LOL. So i went half and hr late AND the best part was, i was STILL the first to reach =D. Funny hor? XD.
We chatted for quite a while, Jeff gave me a nice cabal card thing XD, ARIGATO!! I like the cabal's 3D char art and design...damn cool...Oh and he did sth funny to my phone which i find amusing, and VERY interested to try.... =D.
Anyway...rite nw i'm still feeling quite lousy...i hope i'll recover by tml.

XD...>.<

2009-02-24T23:26:00.005+11:00

Cosplay allstars was quite fun on the whole, the binding almost made me suffocate sia...felt soooo much happier after i removed it. After the whole event, we went to Lau Pa Sat to eat dinner... the ban mian was ok.... dunno if it's coz i'm tired or the irritating noise blasters that decided to play noisy songs when i start to eat =_=....
Yest went to cut chidori's wig at Vivo... then went home. Tried a few of urahara's home made pineapple tarts and cookies, they were not bad, esp when it's his first time making the tarts....or i'm just a un-fussy eater =D. I wanted to watch movie der...then...someone couldnt leave his sweet sweet bed behind so nev watch in the end lor...XD, dun nid feel too bad about it lar....although i wasnt happy about it, i had time to do my jap hw, which i've been accumulating since day1....LOL.
Oh yeahs...found some interesting 'motivational' posters online...
Some of my favs:

n........my fav....XD

-------------------??---------------------

2009-02-21T05:59:00.004+11:00

Sad-ed.....Stressssseeeeddddd........ Next thurs is my Jap mid terms, or so they call it n i dun remember a shit from the previous lessons i had for the past 3 weeks. GG... DX.......... nid to revise like crazy liao...
Piano theory exams is on 14 mar and the other one is either on 16,17 or 18 mar.
I hope i wouldnt have to vomit too much blood to stay alive after that, so i can take my jap final exams sia...=_=.

Anyway later today is the All stars photoshoot. My 1st all stars photoshoot...
N i dun feel like going.
Actually i dun feel like doing anything or going anywhere else, except to the beach
No mood to do anything.
Yesh i'm emoing, but over what i shall not say, but definately not coz of the upcoming exams.
This problem belongs to me and no one else shall even hear of it.
.....but....... i'll go anyway, to the all stars......
maybe i'll be happier there.

=D

2009-02-18T15:39:00.010+11:00

14 feb- valentines day.
Went out with Yuuki, Gin, Lucyfer, shiki...then met up with various other ppl...I reached Dhoby Ghaut at like, half hr earlier than the supposed time we're meeting... coz i had to meet another friend b4 going over, n ended up i met her TOO early....was quite sian to walk around PS by myself, and looking at the zillon pairs of couples being lovey dovey.
Max was supposed to come but he decided to spend V day with him mum so... DX... N Lion was supposed to come but ended up, he couldnt come either...DX in turn, yuuki was quite sad about it..
I received a bouquet of flowers and a box of chocs from Lucyfer!!! XD...it's so sweet. I liked the flowers and choc alot >.< I'm sure the gifts costed more than a bomb on V day... Daisuki yo!! Arigato gozaimasu!!!! But being the forgetful gundu i am... i forgot to take pics of the bouquet and chocs T__T.

15 feb-stoning day
Yep. I stoned at home then, went beach and stone somemore.
I was tired and sian and bored and lazy and lethargic and lazy and wanted to go out with friends but i was tired and bored and lazy and sian and lethargic and lazy and feeling sleepy and lazy..........................(goes on and on)
End of story.

16 Feb - a day out

Went to Bukit Batok to meet lucyfer, then went to his sch with him.... so damn far. XD but i was doing my piano theory on the train so yea, time seems to pass fast =D. I didnt know tt shatec looked like a factory, does it mean tt if its in a factory area, it has to blend in as well?? @_@
After tt, met up with Theo and Shiki... then, slack about a bit before going to suntec. I was so tired i slept during the whole bus ride...then slacked about somemore..... then...go home. I was thinking...hmm at least i was out with friends, n wasnt rotting at home XD...then i realised....
I forgot about my piano =_=.

17 feb - dinner with Shu Jing

This is prob the last few time i'll see her in SG before she flies off to melbourne... then i'll be seeing her in Aussie. She's gonna have a nice dinner with friends b4 she flies so we walked around, looking for a restaurant with the perfert ambience and pricing... n ended up in Woods restaurant. It prob was the best choice we ever found, we went in for dinner n saw tt it has a classy ambience and the food dere was nice and affordable....
We coincidentally dressed like the main 2 chars in Nana...LOL!! i was supposed to b the more punk NANA and she's supposed to b the dumb one... =D...N it was quite surprising when SJ told me she wanted to 'do the girl thing and snap loads of pics' XD but seems like yr phone camera hates u...HAHAHAHA.

=D

2009-02-11T03:58:00.008+11:00

For the few rare times, i actually woke b4 the clock strikes 12pm... praticed a bit of piano n realised once more i'm still too lousy to go for my upcoming exams... Then, went allllllllllll the way to boonlay, met max and co, to go edit/tailor our costumes, n ended up, the tailor forgot we're coming...n went out.
WTH lar.
I'm pissed, but.......what to do?? Nvm lor.... tml go again lor. =X

oh yar... i actually used $1500+ in Jan... so now mum's really hot and bothered about how i spent the $$$.... n i was REALLY shocked at the amount i used ...but...after durian puff =D made me count properly...i realised most of the $$ goes to paying fees, paying for FMP costume and CNY clothes...so in the end i only spent abt $400 on those normal stuffs like food and transport etc....as usual lor. phew >.<

Sooooooo much stuff has happened lately. Now i wanna update more but........my brain got stuck =_=.....
soooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo
later guys!!
=D

thoughts----------------???

2009-01-24T05:40:00.002+11:00

I am seriously........ sick and tired of something that's been in my life for a very very long time.
I need a break.
but.....
It'll end soon.
Cant wait for CNY to come. The angbao's r gonna be small this year coz of recession....DX.
Still thinking if i should take full time or part time work after my exam.....

Reminders for myself:
save save save save money....
and remember to do my piano theory work. Cant believe i always forget to do them =_="
apply for student visa for swinburne uni
......n i still nid to look for accomodation for my stay in aussie.
what else did i miss?
Oh yea..... passport. It's begging to be renewed. =S

i saw the orientation for swinburne this yr's feb
it's a FRIGGIN 5 solid days... not counting weekends...
god. I hope mine doesnt start too early or take 5 days too.
It may be fun, but i feel sian. =_=

Let's just hope it's fun......

>.<

2009-01-15T04:20:00.007+11:00

Very long never post liao le...>.< CNY coming.... initially got 2 shirts and a shoe for tt... just nid jeans, but nvm lar, still think i shld get 1 more shirt along...coz one of the new year shirt is BLACK AND WHITE....yea... ahmas dun like...LOL.

Today i got...LEVI'S jeans WOO~........ Never thought i'd spent on levis hahaha esp when i'm gonna be broke soon T______T. but haiz.... nice and fitting mah...plus good quality for about 60 bucks >.<>.< but...... nid to buck up in piano DX.......ganbaaaatttteeee to meeeee.

Some random pics....

Bleach casual cosplay photoshoot:

XD...

Merry Chrismas!!! XOXOXO

aiyo....high voltage still want to take =_=

we're THIRSTY XD

I find this pic of L cute leh >.<

XD. look for the odd one out.

'Winter Matsuri' (geeeeeeh kena canceled) pics:

bleach XD

kakashi...stop reading lar...we know what's on the 1st page too XD

Vampire Knight...my fav XD

My 2nd fav XD...

2008-12-29T15:35:00.004+11:00

Finally.
Chalet is over.
Winter Matsuri is also over.
Seriously felt like conking out during the last day of chalet, wonder how i manage to get thru Winter matsuri =_=. I didnt really like matsuri, it was so confusing, they didnt state the location well and we were like, dying in the heat and being totally mad at someone coz we thought it was canceled at the last minute. lol.
Oh yars... and someGUY can crossdress very well wors...>.< totally looks good in the gothic lolita costume XD......

Anyway....yesterday i slacked and slept quite alot so now i'm feeling more recharged... i went to surf the net and, looks for stuffies and realised the i cant watch skip beat on CR anymore coz 'the video is not available in this region' DX.... sucks.......

btw, I saw this video again.... >.< it still makes me feel sad whenever i watch it, and the song's terrific.
XD it's a korean song , Because I'm a girl, by Kiss.

EOY...& the following day

2008-12-16T14:42:00.014+11:00

EOY was 2 days ago...This time it's not laziness that held me back... it was coz i was busy >.<
I went as Matsumoto from bleach..and i failed trying to achieve her size of boobs...T_T... Maybe the rice's not enough, then Naruto ah, kept laughing each time she looks at me =_=. Anyone that wanna know what i did, msg me... i aint gonna post that stuff here....and those that know what we did... STOP laughing >.<

There were alot of cosplayers around... i saw ALOT of Vampire knight, not so much bleach or naruto, besides our group.... some FF characters(omg! there's a really gd zack and aerith, ZACK!! he's damn gd looking......>.<)

Anyways... here are the pictures of cosplayers in EOY, which i mostly kapo from webbies.

Our bleach team

Kon...

matsumoto, Hitsugaya and Rukia

Urahara

ZACK!!!!!>.< and Aerith

A rather cute thing in EOY...i dunno which anime...

This guy made a kid scared and ready to cry when we went for dinner at TM XD....

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The next day i woke early @7am++...go Malaysia to visit my ah ma wif mum, bro and his gf... then had lunch at lavender, a bread shop/ cafe. The bread there ah....damn good.. we all love it to death, and it's breads are cheaper than in Singapore... we ALWAY always buy alooot of breads from there de, then bring back s'pore slowly eat... but usually finish them in a few days...

Look at the no of breads we bought!! XD

The bread was really very nice....eg, butter bread will give u alot of butter taste, proportional to the size of the bread...u really feel like you're eating AND smelling butter bread, makes me feel the local ones i ate are like..... bread skin with a little stingy butter spread.

New Katana!!

2008-12-12T14:53:00.004+11:00

Yesterday went to alooooot of places....see my line of travel...

Home-->Raffles-->Bedok-->Home-->Upper East Coast bus terminal-->Kembangan-->Suntec city--> Simin's hse-->Ang Mo Kio--> Home again finally.

I accompanied my mum to raffles for some stuff, then supposedly to bleach rehearsal.......but.............................Life is so sad... i lost my katana which costs $25 not counting all the other materials i used to alter it.
It happened on wed night, after a bleach rehearsal, i was taking bus 13 home at about 11++pm from Eunos, got off the bus at my house and.... i think i left it on the bus. I even had a thought i have that katana wif me when i'm walking up my hse!!! but no.. it's on the bus. so yest afternoon when i realised it's lost i spent sooo much time searching for it but no avail... All the bus uncle at the terminal said they'll contact me when they find it, which prob will never happen and if it does, i have to go all the way to Yio Chu Kang terminal to collect it since all the lost and found items on the bus to UEC terminal will get transported to YCK.
Oh wells...... i bought a new black katana, sprayed it and everything to b on time for EOY (tml!!) ...now i'm only left with tying the red ribbon on the sword.
So... to make up for losing 1 katana, i decided to make this one a even better one so i wont feel gloomy about the loss >.<

The new katana!! sprayed silver alr =D

Sword (logo?) tt i made purely by myself!!

Giant chrismas tree in suntec... random post XD

Crowne plaza>.<

2008-12-08T04:47:00.005+11:00

Tired tired tired latey.... praticed for competition for EOY yest, n today wanted to do all that rojak stuff which i dun get to do, plus pratice my exam scales but instead, woke late and took a looooong nap during the afternoon, then gotta prepare to set off to send my bro and his gf to the airport liaoz...they're going korea!! geeee i'm jealous...damn jealous >.< i wanna go tour so many other places!!!

Anyway, after that dinner in the airport T1, the one above the check in area, i kena weird gastric/windy pain in the stomuch now...feeling damn discomfort, plus i feel an ache in the back which i think was coz of swimming that day.

Oh yea... this sua gu(me) went to explore T3 for the first time! they have nicer looking resting places, NTUC and a bigger looking coffee shop in there...hmm what else? oh ya they're supposed to have minitoons in there too, but i dun see it...but i walking into that giant hotel, crowne plaza and i luvv the entrance alot... The interior design is the first one i'll put on my fav list, it's really really nice... maybe it's just the deco they put up for chrismas but i luv the entrance from the 2nd level .... another reason is coz the interior structure's pretty much organically shaped, which i like to use and see instead of those normal square/rectangular shaped rooms. I wanted to check out the swimming pool level but bleahhh... u nid the special card for the card reader to give u permission to go up... n i dun hav it. >.<

so i'll just show what i hav. didnt take the interior structure though.

my fav part, the entrance from lvl2 to crowne plaza...luv the path^^

Luv their white bare trees...i tot this pic was really blur at first, but turns out i somehow managed to make those lights sparkly and nice with the night mode on my camera =D

Some resting area on the 1st level which i snapped from lvl2

News on The Gazette

2008-12-06T01:18:00.007+11:00

A recent news update about them, they held a secret live in shinjuku station square and the number of fans that turned up was so overwhelming that it got dangerous, apparently they were only expecting 250 ppl to turn up and instead, a whooping 7000 over turned up(they should know that they were very damn popular rites?? =_=").... the area was too small and it caused traffic jams and some ppl were complaining...so the police had to intercept and stop the performance, n they had to be pulled offstage by the staff......

Awwws...ruki and aoi were so cool... i love what aoi did when they were forced to get off stage...the crowd was wild, kudos to them(both the fans and the Gazette)... even though the performance was short, they were cool and u can tell they're very passionate about their music.

it's really very sad when they did this performance specially for their fans, then to be pulled off stage like this.
There's a vid (really bad quality)showing their performance, and them getting pulled offstage included: http://uk.youtube.com/watch?v=hrJWGpn7pLY&feature=related

here's a translation of the news, found on crunchyroll which they took from http://focaccina.livejournal.com/:
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the GazettE Shinjuku Street Live Gathers 7000 people, the most in history, had to be forcefully stopped.
Visual Kei Rock Band, the GazettE on the 15th(Sat), held their first secret live at Shinjuku Station Square. Approximately over 7000 people, the most in history, turned up at said location for the event, where the GazettE played their new single [LEECH] and performed both songs with much enthusiasm. But having gathered too many attendants, at this unusual situation, the local police were forced to issue a cease and desist after only 2 songs were preformed.

The new song [LEECH], on the 12th of this month, managed to top the Oricon Singles Daily Chart at 1st place and the band has gathered popularity beyond the Visual Kei Rock Scene. Thought it was secret live, fans had filled up the surroundings across the road in front of Shinjuku Alta, despite being a few hours before the live started and the security around the venue reported that the traffic situation was abnormal.

As the members entered the stage, it was like a string of excitement was cut as the audience burst into maniacal cheers. As the vocalist Ruki shouted, “Tokyo! Shinjuku! Come and get it!!!” to fuel the crowd, and a storm of head banging begun, shrouding Shinjuku in a bizarre sight. The local police commented that “It would be dangerous to continue” and proposed that the live be stopped after the 2nd song was preformed. As the crowd cheered for an encore with a resonant voice, being emotionally moved, one by one, the fans broke into tears.
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other links to this news in jap, which i kpo from crunchyroll again, u can read it if u understand:

08/11/16 (日) 更新情報
【the GazettE 新宿ステーションスクエア街頭シークレットライブ速報】

■TV
11/18（火）放送
フジテレビ「めざましテレビ」 5:25-8:00＜カル調＞

■新聞
11/16 朝刊
デイリー、スポニチ、スポーツ報知、サンスポ、東京中日スポーツ、ニッカン（順不同）

■Web
Yahoo!ニュース
http://headlines.yahoo.co.jp/hl?a=20081115-00000009-oric-ent
http://headlines.yahoo.co.jp/hl?a=20081116-00000000-dal-ent
http://headlines.yahoo.co.jp/hl?a=20081116-00000031-sanspo-ent
http://headlines.yahoo.co.jp/hl?a=20081116-00000047-spn-ent
http://headlines.yahoo.co.jp/hl?a=20081117-00000021-cdj-musi

スポニチ
http://www.sponichi.co.jp/entertainment/news/2008/11/16/03.html

デイリー
http://www.daily.co.jp/gossip/2008/11/16/0001569829.shtml

サンスポ
http://www.sanspo.com/geino/news/081116/gnj0811160504003-n1.htm

オリコン
http://www.oricon.co.jp/news/confidence/60114/full/

CDジャーナル
http://www.cdjournal.com/main/news/news.php?nno=21460

listenJAPAN
http://listen.jp/store/musicnews_25397_all.htm

livedoor
http://news.livedoor.com/article/detail/3902288/

oh yeah, The gazette's Leech single's out!! but hw come i dun find it in local stores?? or HMV?? D= I like the song, they're getting better and better >.<

=D

2008-12-06T00:59:00.002+11:00

gonna get a busy week ahead!! gotta reherse for the EOY performance, and my piano performance/grading thing or whatever u call it =D. busy busy busy....i keep getting the most impt part in canon in D wrong D=, i hope i'll be fine during the performance.
My dad's gonna come back to s'pore, supposedly, he's not gonna work in dubai anymore so he's coming back to stay wif us for good =D......mum said that she and dad r gonna acc me to melbourne when i'm first flying off next yr, so i'm glad... at least i get an early assurance tt i'm not gonna be alone in that giant land, zillion times bigger than s'pore and doing everything there on my own for the first time in history. U know, i'm excited about overseas study but anxious too =).....afterall it's my first time! >.<

Photoshoot

2008-12-02T01:24:00.004+11:00

waaa nev update for so long alr...some1 say my blog rotting le hor? i gonna prove u wrong... =X.

i went to yuuki's hse last friday to stay over till today to make the prop making session easier for me.... was drop dead tired yest night so i didnt come back last night...decided to stay over yuuki's hse till this afternoon....and was awaken by the bombing of soft toys by yuuki this morning and also sat morning....something new to experience =_= gehhhh imagine something dropping on you when u sleeping till so nice....>.<

went photoshoot yest... wasnt very well done though.. my flu advanced to fever and it rained so gotta go all the way from chinese garden to Vivo for the shoot...anyway, we overslept till10 plus when we're supposed to be meeting in chinese garden at 10am...on top of tt, some really potential latecomer guy made yuuki,me and aizen ultra late for the shoot...plus no boobs n the wig made me look like a hippie DX...it was even worse before i cut it ...D:

i like kon(not tt person inside).... always the same expression and so cute XD....but kena bullied alot during this photoshoot...XD...byakuya's wig was disastrous...looks like he got electrocuted XD ..there were alot of other stuff tt wasnt very well done due to many many factors......but hmm i believe if we finish all the props long ago and didnt hav to stay up to make all the props the night b4, i think this photoshoot would be alot better.
i was sooooo exhausted during the photoshoot....coz we had to run here and there buying stuff and making the props till, yuuki and i didnt sleep for 29hrs ....... gehhhhh
i think all those who stayed up the night b4 were too, but nvms.... it was a good try i think.

awww mannnn........n i wore blue contacts!! but didnt realise it was orange/yellow(whatever) color with blue...n it made my eyes dry faster and it friggin HURTS and blurs up when it's drying up. Supposedly all colored contact's like this...no fair.... coz i still wanna get purple and red ones in future. =X

i'm just gonna post some pics here.....

changing the color of the (cloth?) on the hilt to other colors...we had a number of swords to work on....still gotta change the design of hilt.

trying to trim wig on yuuki's stuff toy.....this rukia turtle is funny XD

KON!!! XD

killing kon's head XD

Reallly outstanding 15th Bday

2008-11-16T05:59:00.009+11:00

Ok, so the birthday was 2 days ago, on the 13th....(Gee... i'm lazy alright?) it was Yuuki's 15th bday!! hahaha...Ah how actually thought up something, pratically no one could ever thought of, to surprise Yuuki... but i ended up doing most of the stuff. >.<.....anyway.. guess what's the surprise???? we didnt buy a bday cake.....we(me) cooked 15 hard boiled eggs, and colored it red. For the bday gal. ^_^.... and she has to eat it ALL.
we're so naughty right?
bwahahahaha.

BUT, not forgetting the rest of the ppl coming to celebrate her bday...we(me) boiled 15 more eggs. I had quite a hard time carrying those eggs over to AMK coz i had to take a bus then transfer to the MRT during the evening peak hour. there was soooo many ppl boarding and getting off the train which i had to take for 45mins standing, and i didnt want to crack any of the red eggs's shells so it would still look smooth and nice..( i purposely pick all the nice nice ones without any cracks to color red de lehzzz).
Sadly... i forgot to take a pic of the eggs..... i looked like i just killed something or was doing a gross operation on sth when i'm applying the red straberry paste onto the eggs...... the red paste covered my gloves, and was splattered all over in the sink, smeared abit on the table and dripped on the floor......my mum came in and went 'eeeeeeeee'....both at the smell of the paste and sight of the eggs which looks covered in blood. U noe, the paste smeared all over the plate where i put the colored eggs...LOL
i believed i'll look like a women with mental prob if i start laughing sadistically while applying the red paste on the egg.....
Wish i had remembered to take some pics....the sink really looks like a murder scene...XD

Anywaysss....after i met up with ah how and 2 other friends, i didnt have to carry the eggs anymore XD....but we took the wrong bus and ended up walking quite some way to yuuki's hse =_=". Anyway, some guy was late for an 1 1/2 hrs so we kinda bullied him >.< .... and made him eat more eggs than the others(other than yuuki) and the last egg we dug out the egg yolk then put in a big lump of wasabi and 'forced' him to eat XD....
GREAT reaction he showed XD....
LOL...
it was a fun day.... i took cab home at the end of the day coz it was getting very late as we played some card games afterwards . Btw, yuuki still didnt finish all 15 eggs...only 10....(quite gd liao lor...but somehow she seem to enjoy eating them after the first few =_=") XD

random

2008-11-09T03:06:00.003+11:00

I'm totally confused
should i choose this or the other?
so many paths and directions to take.
so many endings and storyline to happen.
what should i do about this?
It's one way or another....
there are no such things as in betweens
either one of us will have to carry the 'hurt'
I'm pondering about it so much.
It's starting to make me emo.
So much trouble to wreck my brains thinking of an answer which might not even be satisfy me
Friggin irritating to think in circles.
I dont want this
I hate it....
HONTO.. TOTEMO DAIKIRAI DESU

no, u dun need to understand =_=
sry, just ranting some stuff off my chest >.<

Battle Royale

2008-10-31T01:20:00.004+11:00

I FINALLY watched Battle Royale and Battle Royale II: Requiem. CHEERS!! i've been looking for this movie for YEARS..nope not exaggerating. The requeim is the continued part of Battle Royale. It's a really violent movie, loads of blood, though some of the acting looks quite fake to me. It's about a really corrupt and bad eco time in Japan, where students give the adults so much headache that it got so bad, the government made a new law where a class of students are chosen every year, brought to an isolated place and are made to kill each other off until only one student is left. My summary prob made the movie sound really dumb and boring but i do find it nice even though it's quite bloody. The comic's prob more bloody and sadistic but i dun think i can find and rent it easily here.

Bloody death

Nanahara Shuya... yea, i didnt know that the lead actor's the guy tt's acted as light yagami in death note.

Looks pretty fake to me...Wonder if it's possible in reality to still be alive for a few seconds with the axe on the head??

Battle Royale II: Requiem -> terrorist grp, wild seven

The govt made a class of student go to war again.

= heaven's wrath?? = plus other stuff

2008-10-31T00:24:00.005+11:00

I'm getting a little paranoid lately... with all the exams coming up. Friday- piano lesson as usual, . Sat-Piano Theory Exam. Sun - Jap Exam. It's been so long since i have exam/test continuous for 3 days. To me piano lesson is a test itself coz i gotta pratice alot alot alot just to get half a song right and usually by the next day i'm gonna get it abit wrong here and there again.
Why get paranoid? coz right after grad, i choose to finish up up all of gr8 piano so i have about half a year b4 the gr8 exam and b4 i'm ready for Uni. i planned to spend it on piano, plus jap and cosplaying..n see whatever else i wanna learn or do. Then, yars, u can guess... with no sch, not much push (except for my piano teacher and knowing i've got a giant exam coming up) i started slacking bad....till i realised i gotta buck up or else i'd never pass, then only i started praticing hard, esp scales and all tt shit memo work. Then... the new news of a mini sch performance thingie in dec was told to me. Exam songs not allowed. the 2 songs (originally 3, teacher gave me discount)must be somewhere near my level (gr8). So i gotta pratice like siao char bo to get the songs well enuff to not play wrong when i'm nervous. Hard stuff, coz like i said, i take friggin long to get a part right, only to get it half right the next day again.
Makes me wonder if god's purposely putting me thru all these coz i slacked too much even though i told others i decided ganbatte to complete and pass the whole ting. >.<>.<

My choc cake!! Giant and chocolatey

Hmm.... and i decided to not do Dgray man cosplay for EOY... no $$$. Decided not to work coz i really need the time for piano. Since i alr have my bleach uniform, i decided to do bleach instead. Went to get the wig of matsumoto last night. Now just left with a sword and pink shawl thingie. Yay. Maybe i'll just fill in the gap after my main piano exam next yr.

Stopid me and BLOODY cheater driver

2008-10-25T02:43:00.007+11:00

Long day.... tireddd........ had to complete a whole exam theory paper S today, right after piano lesson this morning... just when my mind's half zonked out.
As usual, i havent studied/revised anything yet....when the grade gets higher and higher, the level of how irritating the paper gets, goes higher and higher too (god help me).
So i forced this halfdead brain to work, slack here sleep there... and ended up doing the paper for full 3 hrs, dun even know got mistake or nots n passed it to the teacher when i'm done and ....realised LH called, saying she gonna come over my hse liaoz. So i rushed out, took a cab back, then.........bloody driver and his 10mins-late brain anyhow drive to dunno what expressway instead of following where i told him to take, insisting the expressway faster. Know tt my hse damn close to B******e liao, and even confirmed wif me le, still tell me 10 mins later 'Ooooh i just realised which condo is that, sorry took wrong turn' after he went onto the wrong expressway. The meter actually said $10++ upon reaching my hse...then he say 'sorry ah, i'll just count it as $8' and proceeded to collect $8 from me afterwards at my hse bus stop dere, where LH was waiting for me.
Bloody hell arsehole...wan eat my $ only, so obvious... if LH not waiting for me i sure gonna bargain wif u (if not scold u) normally at that timing i take cab back only about $7, all the way to the carpark below the(my) building. (I got off at the bus stop today)
KNN. Waste my time and $$$$$$$$
My fault too la, coz me and my more than half zonked out brains became dumb dumb telling him ok as i tot he going the other correct express way, and most imptly DIDNT NOTICE he gonna take a wrong turn before he makes it.
GEHH *kicks myself* at least was just a difference of abt $1 from past honest cab rides.

*IMPT lesson learnt* ALWAYS keep alert on taxis coz they can end up eating yr money happily if u dont.

Anyway...after that, waited for LH to fit the new (pipe screw?) for the water thingie..then realised too small liaoz....=_="...have to wait for her to come back with a new one (if there is) again... after all that about 430pm i realised i havent had lunch (how smart)...so i throw 2 pieces harsh brown into the oven then went to bathe. Eat harsh brown, stone for about 10 mins, change clothes, then set off to AMK watch movie. Took cabbie again home after movie ( this one aint a cheater), then now typing away at my lappy. Gonna take a bath, maybe play the piano for a short while before sleeping.

Today's event seem rather fast paced, wif barely any breaks...fridays seems to be like this recently u noe...i hope not forever sia...>.<

oyasumi~~

= bleach outing!! Exhausted=

2008-10-20T04:25:00.005+11:00

(WARNING: WALL OF TEXT)
-no photos at all--only long grandma story O_o-

WAaaahh today was really tiring sia... slept late last night(main reason) coz i was up playing cabal... then woke early(main reason 2) to go for 3 hrs jap class in orchard, then proceed straight to AMK hub meet my bleach team ppl for bonding session. I'm getting a little confused with the Jap stuff... (who said jap was easy?) keep forgetting stuff here and there......

So far, almost all the ppl in these 2 cosplay grps i joined callss each other by the char name we're supposed to cosplay as...so ended up i dunno alot of the team ppl's real names..>.<, we went by with 'hitsugaya', 'hinamori', 'aizen' blah blah blah and me -> matsumoto..... LOL. Surprisingly I actually can respond to these names better than 'Elie' (geehh!).....last time was known by yukia(yuuki + Rukia = as some ppl call her) as kaname, now it's Matsumoto =_=", but i can respond well to them leh... even when i spacing out...weird weird...somebody gimme an explanation??

oooh yeaaaaa..... Hitsugaya taichou finally bought my honey dew milk tea for me!!! yay! thank you thank you thank you!! last time she forgot tt she say she gonna get me honeydew milk tea then got 3 ppl went to remind her tt she DID say she'll get it..LOL!!! 3 ppl lehz...(lol, it's just a cup of bubble tea, nothing special) actually i said it for fun larz...but today she actually bought it and decide to treat me >.< , such a nice taichou.... i wonder did she get Hinamori her watermelon?? i forgot to ask XP... It'll be heavy hahaha..Next time gotta treat bubble tea back for Taichou >.<.........

Btw, we were supposed to discuss about some stuff through with the grp, but somehow ended up not discussing much... all fooling around sia.... but gonna have a BBQ for this team again ...YAY! BBQ POTATOES!! shld be some time during Dec since Nov alot ppl r not free...i suggested having tt bbq on the day of photoshoot(also somewhere in Dec)... but dunno can or not... later too much stuff to carry, very troublesome... Anyways, we watched Max Payne but i find it ...quite...not so exciting... the preview of tt show and the actual thing's like, north and south poles....the preview's exciting but the actual's different...i didnt really like it so i wont recommand it to anyone ... after tt went lunch... then aizen and i went to the comic rental shop to read books for 2 hrs..and some went to play pool.

I noticed each time we were doing sth, some of us would not b dere... when we were in the arcade, we were waiting for 3ppl to come, then when we were in the movies, 3 ppl again, didnt watch, and 2 ppl didnt join us for lunch/dinner (went home) and after that, 2 ppl went off to read comics, 3 ppl went off to play pool and the rest dunno go where....=_=" . Ppl r always missing at some point of time DX... but oh wells...wadever la.... as long as everyone's happy....

I was pretty tired by the end of the day... my eyes feel dry with the contacts by that time..........did i mention i dun realli like wearing contacts? i think i'm just not used to it though....need to get eye drops i think.
Nevertheless... i journeyed 1 1/2 hrs to go home ... reached home abt 1130pm..... played abit of cabal, until my irritating internet keep d/c-ing me.................
now....
tired tired tired....
going zzzzz ~~soon~~ now
oyasumi~~

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2008-10-13T16:48:00.005+11:00

Last wed went to juliet's music sch... play around with the electric pianos... she was really good with them...playing a song straignt off chords and singing >.<.... wells, we made a really really funny(stupid??) and interesting song off the jap hiragana XD... she played the guitar and i was singing off key LOLs....it was fun.. fooled around until her class starts. I sua gu, only know how to read and play from scores, She taught me to read from those guitar tab like stuff and play them on the piano... as accompaniment and voice, or with the melody. Haha, i think i liked this better than the classical piano (seriously i still dun find knowing what era and style those pieces are in, when it's written and all that memorising ten dozen kind of scales and arpeggios useful to me)... but hey, not that i dislike classical... it's nice too, but just that i find pop piano's more interesting XD, and teaches things that arent taught in classical piano, or focus on all the fun parts of playing the piano, at least that's how i feel.

Went to Japan matsuri at clark quay this past sat...supposed to have 2 events on but........... it was uber boring. Like a friend say, 'we sat at the river banks so long like ppl who just 'shi lian''.....WHY?? were awaitng for 3 ppl.. never participate competition, never cosplay (i went in visual kei), also no photoshoot...just sit there and watch.... Thinking about it, i was the only one in Visual Kei... Yuuki took off her neko ears and tail so she's no longer yuukineko liao.. (was so cute b4 taking off lors).
After that at night 8pm, finally all of us reached. Then we went off tog with some of the bleach team members, in costume or not to makan at plaza sing. Hitsugaya's got a real metal sword tt costs 200+... but i think its really nice(gives better effect during photoshoot)... dun mind spending that on buying metal sword when doing matsumot but budget's tight...plus my char dun really have one metal one made specially for so i gotta search hi and lo around s'pore if i want to get...geeehhhhh.
I need to get some other matching VK tops for my uru-style pants too... or else always wear the same one very boring de...
Anyways heard many people refuse to cos during matsuri coz of some irritation with the organiser or sth like tt...

We were bored, that's yuuki's hands..>.< (notice the welcome to clark quak sign? i took that pic without realising it LOL)

...gotta go tailor my kanda special uni soon... there's only about 2 more months before EOY.

New stuffies in my life

2008-10-02T03:51:00.007+10:00

hiya.... havent been updating lately.. been quite lazy and occupied with many other stuffs lately too >.<..............finally!!!!!!!!! i went for my first cosplay as kaname from VK (yaaa!!XD crossdress!whee... new & refreshing experience!)... which i think wasnt very good (the wig!! the fatss!!! T_T) other than that it was rather enjoyable XD though, yea...we did notice some of our flaws,so gotta improve on them next time.
I've been to 2 events, 1 photoshoot total. It was pretty tiring but fun - ooh and i got contacts too!!! >.<(but somehow i dun really like wearing them)... The VK group i joined was VERY friendly and outgoing(yay i made new friends!!) even though i'm supposedly the oldest in this group, i didnt feel like an outcast.
The overall costume costed me a bomb(about $200 complete), i finally experienced a little on how expensive this cosplaying hobby could be,a LITTLE only, coz some costumes costs waaayy more!!... plus i'm gonna b doing bleach and Dgrayman soon too.....hope i'm not gonna go broke soon sia...... dun wanna give my parents a reason to yell at me for spending money on this 'kinda hobby'....so now a real solid reason and stress on me to REALLY REALLY REALLY get a job even if it's part time...so i'm starting to look for work all over again...->yar ...call me an ignorant idiot for being so picky and er, dumb for not working part time when i could bahhhh.....but u can bet i'll take a job this time....(goodbye my super free days T_T)

-during matsuri on 30/31 aug-

Visual kei 1st attempt!...hair's done by amber XD, i like the silver streaks alot, nt really obvious here though

posing for camera....pratice session b4 i go for Vampire Knight cosplay the next day....(turns out i was bad at it T_T)

Vampire Knight grp for tt day -not all- ( L to R: random night class guy, aidou, zero, yuuki, kaname)

I like this picture... somehow...(although swords r out of place i noe)

Zero and Yuuki

Yuuki Cross and Kaname Kuran....(i hope i didnt screw up sia!! ^^ )

Took part in the competition as a grp...last minute descision, damn nervous sia, i was kinda trembling when i was on talking on stage...lucky just need do 5 poses (if script i sure forget my lines) , and we got the 5th!! XD happy!! but the prize abit.....erms.... .... nvm la, knowing got 5th very happy liaos!!my 1st time somemore!!^^

-photoshoot session-

i havent taken alot of other photos of this photoshoot... got alot alot alotttt really funny one.. they r fun pic with yuuki and another random night class guy...(yaaaaa yukineko!! tt's the one i cant stop laughing at XD) XD... but sadly, i dun have them-yet......gotta remember to ask for the rest of the photos >.<

kayss.....i'm gonna sleep alr, so yeah......
jaa

WTH?? So screwed...

2008-08-03T23:29:00.004+10:00

i was browsing the net when i came across this--> http://shadyone.wordpress.com/2007/01/27/mda/

Exactly, WTH is going on with the MDA or whatever?? they actually rummage through other people's PAID goods ordered overseas or from ebay(or such places) and took the contents away just to check if it's a title banned or that it's appropriate for viewing? then if it's alright with them, its returned to the owner with SCRATCHES or in BAD conditions??
Taken from the site... the goods(DVDS) the customer's supposed to receive's gone..................

....................Then the customer realize MDA sneaked them away for their own reasons....

Look... people are complaining...

7. 'I also got wtfpwned by the MDA back in February this year.I imported black lagoon. My disc covers were all scratched pretty badly.'

8. 'I totally understand man..I had about 7 DVDs wtfpwned altogether. The worst thing is the bloody sticker is hard to take off and it fkn ruined the DVDs T_T You imported from Amazon too I suppose?'

it's all in the comment section of the link i put right at the top...
MDA is screwed up... in the head... or whoever does this is..........

Zettai Kareshi

2008-07-13T22:06:00.004+10:00

Piano, Jap, sleep, Piano Jap Sleep...(ARGH)...Well, i was getting bored lately so i decided to watch the new JDorama 'Zettai Kareshi'(Absolute Boyfriend), which was based off the manga drawn by my all time fav mangaka - Yuu Watase. I've read almost all of her works, including this series, Zettai kareshi, and Fuushigi Yuugi, Ayashi no Ceres, bla bla bla... and i love almost all that i've read hahaha... but that time i didnt quite like the cover for book 1 of Zettai Kareshi so i didnt collect it, rather, i rented it ...haha...

Usually i thought that stories acted out wouldn't be as nice as the written one, but this drama's one of the few which managed to make it to my 'worth watching / favourites' list of shows. unsurprisingly it is one of the top fav dramas being watched in crunchyroll (where i watched it) right now =). The story looks better than Meteour Garden's drama to me too... Hopefully NO part 2 comes out or it will totally destroy the story( remember meteor garden 2 *zzzz*).

I love both the Drama and the manga, both r just as touching. Although the drama have a setting way different from the manga but the storyline's basically similar...Night was still a robot with its settings chosen by Riko and Soushi still love Riko...*no spoilers, i'll shut up*

...but there's still one thing i dun like about it, that is, the characters that's supposed to be good looking arent as good looking as drawn in the manga... HAHAHA... but that's just my two cent's worth ...lolx

Zettai Kareshi, the manga

Zettai Kareshi- the Jdorama...

Her Special Day

2008-07-08T18:03:00.007+10:00

My friend got married 2 days ago, but i was kinda busy and the pictures arent out too so now then i manage to post this, oh but the pics still arent all out yet only a few...Kelvin was filming around the wedding for like, the whole thing... even though we do have phototaking sessions (pics not out yet) with the bride and groom..
it's like omg lor~! they're married! and Jo's so pretty! Many other friends are invited, havent seen them for eons after they flew to aussie and europe etc etc... felt so happy to see them again!
we had buffet for high tea, and sadly, the bride and groom's so busy they only get to eat after all of us had our fill, which means they can only have the few leftovers... ahhaha the bride was being sulky about the food ...lol ...so cute. Jo's like, the most honest and cutest among our grp of friends lor.

Anyways i'm lazy now so i'll let what little pic i have to do the rest =)

The bride and the groom(Jo and Jeff)

Me and my long time no see friends =)

Fun Quiz

2008-07-03T00:13:00.005+10:00

Ok, so i saw this quiz from my friends blog, looks like fun so i just did it... supposedly the mp3 will be the guide to yr life. I got quite alot of ridiculous ans, and neither do i know how to intepret alot of things... u do the imagination.. lol.
lemme copy and paste the way to do it...

1. Put your music player on shuffle.
2. Press forward for each question.
3. Use the song title as the answer to the question even if it doesn’t make sense. No cheating.
4. With the answers, give your own comments on how it relates to the questions.
5. Tag 5 people.

*How are you feeling today?
200 Pounds beauty – maria (kin ah joong)

hmmm... no self confidence??

*Will you get far in life?
Avril Lavigne – Skater Boy

do i fail? or a success?

*How do your friends see you?
*Chrono Crusade - Azmaria no Zesshou

it's a sad sounding song.... how do i interpret this? Am i emo?

*Will you get married?
X Japan - Track 9 ( yep i dunno the song title got tis song from friend...)

it's a rock song, very happy and upbeat... sadly i dunno the title...

*What is your best friend’s theme song?
Yoshiki - Longing

=/ ?????? does she want something?

*What is the story of your life?

midori no hibi - Mousukoshi Mousukoshi

actually this song's quite pleasant to listen to... so i guess it's good

i've got a GOOD life =D

*What was high school like?
BSB - Drowning

(what?! that bad?? )

*How can you get ahead in life?
Gackt – Mizerable

i feel so sad suddenly........ miserable future

*What’s the best thing about your friends?
Yami no Matsuei – Eden

cant interpret?

*What’s in store for this weekend?
kanon wakeshima - Still Doll

i hope i dun get lonely this weekend...

*Describe your grandparents.
Bleach - Thank you

Thank you ahgongs ah mas =)

*How’s your life going?
Britney Spears - Everytime

Another sad song about my life... =/

*What song will they play at your funeral?
D Gray Man - Pride of Tomorrow

How could i look forward to tml when i'm supposed to be dead? isnt this weird? lol
it's just supposed to be a fun quiz lol

*How does the world see you?
Acid Black Cherry - Hatsukoi

hatsu koi = first love( see from somewhere, not sure)

wonder what's that mean?

*Will you have a happy life?
Gil Ofarim – out of my bed still in my head

I think i might be stuck with alot of trouble instead of a happy life based on the song =(

*Do people secretly lust after you?
Luna Sea - Up to You

cant interpret.... dun see link...

*How can you make yourself happy?
Luna Sea - Wish

i need to fufil all my wishes before i'm happy i guess =D

*What should you do with your life?
Luna Sea - Dejavu

er... follow my heart?

*Will you ever have children?
janne Da Arc - 月光花

huh?

*What song would you strip to?
janne da arc - 振り向けばb

again...huh? dun think so ba

*What does your mum think of you?
kawabe chieko - Cry Baby

o man... i REALLY hope it's not true...

*What is your deep, dark secret?
Luna Sea - Be Awake

huh?

*What is your mortal enemy’s theme song?
Sarah Mclachlan – in the arms of an angel

ah hahaha.... my enemy's stuck in the arms of an angel....

wont meet him/her i guess

*What’s your personality like?
Nightmare - The World

wow... am i that upbeat?

*What song will be played at your wedding?
X japan – Tears( unreleased Version)

you know... i just might cry... if this's true..

OMG such a sad song...

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That's it.... ridiculous ans right? my interpretations rarely come from the lyrics, coz i dont always look for translations for the song unless i love it.

lol but it's fun and interesting lol.

Try if you're bored... =)

Requesting for a better grip on life

2008-06-28T01:30:00.004+10:00

Havent posted for such a long time... this morning, my dad came back from Dubai, and tonight, SJ flew off to Melbourne... really makes me wanna get started on uni immed... haha.
My friend's wedding is coming up very soon. I went broke getting the gown, bag, make ups and stuff. Everyone's moving on... i feel left behind...kind of. O well, i do miss my old life before everyone graduates anyway ..haha, but like a friend told me some time back, whatever i chose just move foward... makes alot of sense when i think more about it, u know, life goes on kinda thing...

I guess i'll just try to get a distinction in Gr8 piano so make all this time worth it. Something i've never accomplished before... that i find worth trying. Hope it doesnt end up like my Gr6 theory exams, i thought i remembered and knew everything better than the back of my hand but i didnt even get a merit at all even though i sincerely believe i only got a couple of questions wrong on the paper. Got this feeling that I wanna kill the person who marked my paper and ask 'what the hell went wrong?!!' heh heh... it REALLY would HELP alot if i could see what went wrong, but sadly i cant.. dunno y they have to be so stingy.
no i'm not conceited.... just thought i could do better.

Final Decision.

2008-06-01T02:54:00.006+10:00

Okay.
I've finally sorted out my stuff already.
No more weird stuff should be coming out of me anymore.
No more looking for jobs then being a bastard after it calls back.
No more looking for jobs at all (for now).

First and foremost:
Prioritize my piano and just grad from my piano already... should be next year.
Reason: My piano playing skills basically (and literally) sucks and i know it all. So if i dont pratice, I would'nt ever be able to grad from grade8 even after 100 years.

Next:
Actually start officially taking Jap class during this time too, and learn till a decent level of Japanese before going to Jap.
Reason: A rojak kind of jap learning process wouldnt get me anywhere, without a tour guide, while visiting Japan. Yes, and i would be working for a while before i go, not now but in somewhere in future. i might even decide to go only after i completed uni, but things would be easier if i'm already equipped with a decent range of japanese lang, read or write, before deciding anything.

Last:
Search for and enrol in a University overseas after i completed the above.
Reason: well, 90% chance i'm going overseas to study. I have a rough idea what i want to pursue already, all that's left is decide on one and search for the uni. I wont really care how long i'll take to complete the above but hopefully by end of next year. I dont want to leave things half done and quit. Plus i said i wanna go walk around japan and even catch a concert in there, so i'm going to go sight-see japan and catch a concert there whether it's next year or 5 years later. Period.

I think i'm(will) actually lagging behind others who decide to pursue futher studies, and i think i'm about the only one who didnt take any job after graduation. HAHAHA.

It bothers me abit(more than abit actually), but i should just go at my own pace...right?

-Misc-
O yeah. below's my rough sketch of Aoi from the Gazette, cleaned up a little with photoshop. I did it when i felt realllllly seriously stressed out and frustrated by FYP to get my mind off things, so it isnt very good and i think it dont look quite like him.
I would love comments for improvement.
Thanks.
No Flaming please.

CATSS!!

2008-06-01T02:54:00.001+10:00

Catsss!!!There's so many around my bf's living estate. We would specially buy cat food for some of the cats sometimes. There's this cute 'lil stray cat we started feeding recently, it's pretty skinny, with a 3 colored fur, brown, black and yellow(i think). Yesterday..or sometime there, we fed the cat with a small can of cat food but it seemed really hungry as it kept staring at the biscuit i was eating even after it polished off EVERY SINGLE bit of food from the can. It's eyes just kept following the biscuit wherever it went. It's so adorable! Then today we decided to get it a bigger can of food but it couldnt finish the food in the end...Anyways we scratched it and play with it a little before deciding to remove the leftovers and give to some other strays, but guess what? That cat jumped up immed when my bf tried to take the food and it started EATING again...=_=" Anyways the cat didnt eat for long, so there's still lots of leftovers...then it wanted us to scratch it more before it sleeps. We then let the 4 stray kittens + their mother cat living nearby have the leftovers, and it's actually enough for them all... not so sure about the mother cat though, since it's the last to eat.
I tried to take pics of those cute fellas but my phone camera's not good, everything came out pixel lated as i have to use the night mode and zoom to avoid frighting the cats.
OMG I so love cats... they're so damn cute lor, not just cats, i love hamsters, dogs, and basically most animals. Those animals abusing people should just.....die.

Grad day + other random thoughts

2008-05-25T03:05:00.003+10:00

Yea I noe this post's supposed to go below the other one, but well, who cares...I wanna rant =)
Grad day basically SUCKS for me. I forgot to register for the grad day ceremony online so I had a blue card, instead of the white one, which labeled me as a 'Latecomer' and I'm(we're-all the 'latecomers') stuck outside to wait for my turn ( IAD's turn), while standing and watching the whole thing from the pathetic TV screen. It's only after that that we get to go in and sit and watch the rest of the ceremony, then I realised they have sooooo friggin much rows of FREE EMPTY UNOCCUPIED seatS around. Ok, maybe they need to check if more guest are coming.... but the rest are my own personal problems... I had to walk around alot to look for friends and stuff and I only had this boots with pretty high heels, which matched the criteria and the overall look of the gown to wear, so I was wearing it for at least 2 full hours straight, either walking or standing before entering the ceremony. I rarely wear heels, let along high ones, so you can say that my feet almost died way before I got on stage.
'then why did you buy heels so high in the first place?' you might ask, and my answer is that I was being stupid and thought that the heels are not very high when I bought it.
To top it off, I had a SEVERE headache somewhere when the ceremony just started so I was glad when my mum msged me if I wanted to go home so she could rest earlier for tml, sometime in the middle of the ceremony, but well, we decided to eat the buffet as dinner as we didnt want to cook so we didnt leave that early, I didnt really have much appetite for dinner due to my headache, but my stomach says otherwise..... oh well whatever LOL.
Some grad day eh? Looking back, I really wanted to snap a pic with everyone that I know yesterday, but what I felt then was the total opposite.... so yea, apologies with anyone that wanted a photo and sry cheryl I didnt lend my camera for u to take more pics.

Hmm now my random thoughts, not related to grad day... too lazy to put in separate posts.

I wish I could get back the excitement of being a kid, you know, like how they go so excited over seeing a pretty butterfly flying pass them and start yelling for their mum to come see or over a class field trip. Now it's like, not much things can make me that excited anymore, much of what see/do is like a repetition that we have everyday and that makes life ALOT more boring than a kid... Happy things do happen, but not like those with overflowing excitement, adrenaline pumping and you might start screaming around happily any time soon.

Oh yea... and I wonder why my new nokia phone keeps hanging so much of the time? it's irritating as hell...... are most hp like that nowadays? I couldnt even open a damn message for half a day if I didnt pull out the battery and put it in again when it hangs. oh btw you cant call me when it hangs too. stoooopid phone.

hmmm what else? oh right...I've been wanting to do this for quite some time alr... I really want to go japan again, for sight-seeing, shopping and playing around in there......WITHOUT a tour... I also want to go there to catch my fav artistes's concert... the Gazette, X japan...maybe Dir En Grey, to name a few. But before going.... I need to accomplish a few obvious tasks first..=)

Long awaited kind-of -day =)

2008-05-25T02:46:00.002+10:00

Yup! Today's the kind of day that i havent had for quite long already. Splashed much of my money hanging out with friends, but it's worth it coz i had my fill of fun. Initially we just wanted to go for bowling but ended up playing pool, bowling, watch movie and had a nice little chat at Gelarie Cafe till 11pm.
There was such a looooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooog queue for bowling we actually thought it will take 3 hrs till our turn to play, so we suggested watching a movie then. It actually turned out to be faster than we thought so we spent the time playing pool, but too late, after talking about what movie to watch we already felt like watching movie lol... at least i did ...hahaha. We watched Chocolate after bowling. It's a good show, i like the adrenaline I got from watching the fighting scene, made me more interested in Muay Thai than before LOLL. The interesting fact about the movie is that none of the stunts acted out uses stunt double, something like those jackie chan movies( except that alot of injuries happened), which was another reason i wanted to watch this movie.
I realized I'm kinda rusty at pool and bowling now after not playing them for eons ever since i entered the mad life in poly. Felt soooooooooooooo relaxed again, i'm glad i could feel this happy and all that again, coz somehow, these past 3 years i realised i'm kinda rigid around people, always wondering what to say and not, feeling tired and not really into socializing..... so i bet i look VERY aloof and ...uninteresting =_=" . Even one of my old friends told me that i became very quiet during these past 3 years. Well, I couldnt really help it. There's just a sudden explosion of stress, tiredness, bad stuff and unhappy stuff that happened upon entering the next stage of life..... which is very common. I think it's that i couldnt handle it that well that's why i became more quieter.
BUT, i know that i definitely grew much more, in many different ways, from the previous stage.
I'm happy about that =)

One hell of a mess

2008-05-08T03:04:00.002+10:00

Lately these few weeks I've been really weird, saying i need a job then pushing them away... yea, many called back to me but i always decline, then find some kind of reason, whether i think so or not to tell people around me who asks 'why?'. I feel messed up.....kind of. For no apparent reason either, feeling depressed, then irritated, then happy then this then that... Is this a kind of disease? I hope not. Spamming The Gazette's songs all day long keeps my spirits up, but the effect dies away pretty quickly afterwards.
I have this weird thought that's bugging me lots ever since few days ago...Life's just this hell of an insanely huge prison where some kind of superior being is keeping everyone in. Everyone has no way of escaping and is bound to whatever means and ways to get themselves to survive. AND that superior being keeps enjoying throwing in funny obstacles and watch ppl struggling to get over it.
Oh yea, the reply to the application to NTU results are out, as i thought, i didnt get in. Many poly friends that i heard from didnt get in either. The govt really do give priority to JC students... but i dont really mind... Felt kind of relieved even, at the sudden thought that i wont have to start sch this august and that i suddenly have many choices in life, and even right now.
I just have to get a grip on this messy enough life, and get on with it. Easy to say, hard to do...plus the fact that i realised that i DO get exhausted doing god-knows-what-kinda-junk-all-lazy-bum-does for this whole day doesnt help much.

the end??

2008-04-27T01:27:00.003+10:00

Saw this from my friend's site... this meteor's supposedly gonna smack the Earth in about 31 years time and scientists are trying to find ways to detour the path of this meteor..wow. So much to do, so little time, for the scientist anyways.. haha.. not like we could do anything about it. Just pray it does'nt hit the Earth.
Here's the article. Apparently it's old news. I'm so outdated... lol
http://www.guardian.co.uk/science/2005/dec/07/spaceexploration.research

lost and found...

2008-04-21T16:03:00.002+10:00

I found an 'edusave scholarship' cert for Dawn Pauline Wong behing my piano just now.... must be that it dropped down, from that time when the ppl came over to film some scenes for their proj...^^
LOL...gotta tell 'Dawn Pauline Wong'... maybe she still needs it???

Visual Kei..

2008-04-21T15:23:00.007+10:00

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=.=

2008-04-15T02:10:00.003+10:00

Havent posted for so long.... feel sooo lazy and didnt know what to post anyway. Turned down an exhibition job recently, instead, i want to do part time... coz i dun even know if i'll get into NTU, so if i do, i might not have time to do that exhibition job. On top of that, that job sounded really... unstable. Plus i need to brush up my piano, and plan to take jap lessons, so i cant be having full time job either.
Anyway i did this 100 question thing for fun...
here u go ( if it isnt a bother to read :X )

BASICS:
(1) Your gender: Female
(2) Straight/gay/bi?: Straight

(3) Married? No
(4) Want to be? Yea..
(5) Your birth day: 27/08/1988
(6) Age you wish you were: always 3 yrs younger than what I am –for no reason

(7) Your height: 168cm
(8) The color of your eyes: dark brown

(9) The color of your hair: Dark Brown
(10) Piercings?: no
(11) Tattoos?: No

DO YOU...
(12) Smoke?: No
(13) Do drugs?: No
(14) Read the newspaper?: when I feel like it
(15) Pray?: oh yeah… before the exams and before getting my results
(16) Talk to strangers who IM you?: Nope, not really
(17) Take walks in the rain?: If I have to
(18) Drive?: no
(19) Like to drive fast? Only in the arcade

HAVE YOU EVER...
(20) Hurt yourself?: no
(21) Been out of the country?: Yes
(22) Been in love?: yes
(23) Done drugs?: lol no
(24) Gone skinny dipping?: Nah
(25) Had a surgery?: nope
(26) Ran away from home?: Nope
(27) Played strip poker?: Nope
(28) Gotten beaten up?: nope
(29) Been picked on?: Uh yea
(30) Been on stage?: Yup
(31) Slept outdoors?: Yup
(32) Pulled an all-nighter?: not really
(33) If yes, what is your record?: didn’t sleep at all
(34) Talked on the phone all night?: Nope
(35) Slept together with the opposite sex without actually having sex?: Lol yea
(36) Slept all day?: 12 hrs

(37) Killed someone?: No.
(38) Made out with a stranger?: No
(39) Had sex with a stranger? Lol No
(40) Kissed the same sex?: No

(41) Done anything sexual with the same sex?: No
(42) Been betrayed?: not really
(43) Broken the law: Uh..does jaywalking count?
(44) Met a famous person?: er…like music artists and stuff…
(45) Been on radio/TV.?: nope
(46) Been in a mosh-pit?: Nope
(47) Had a nervous breakdown?: Not really
(48) Been criticized about your sexual performance?: nope
(49) Had a dream that kept coming back?: used to…it repeated 4 times throughout 16 yrs of my life.

RANDOM:
(50) Shoe brand?: New Balance
(51) What are you normally wearing to school/work?: T shirt and jeans
(52) Judge other people by their clothing? Nah
(53) Wear make-up?: hmm, not really
(54) Favorite place to shop?: Taiwan. =)
(55) Favorite article of clothing?: jeans?

(56) Are you trendy?: Abs not...

BELIEFS:
(57) Believe in life on other planets?: somehow..
(58) Miracles?: Ya
(59) Astrology? A little
(60) Magic?: wish there was.
(61) God?: Yea
(62) Satan?: Yea
(63) Santa?: OF COURSE …..NOT(wish there was)
(64) Ghosts?: ya
(65) Luck?: somehow
(66) Love at first sight?: Nope
(67) Good and evil?: ya
(68) Witches?: maybe…
(69) Easter bunny?: Nope
(70) Believe it's possible to remain faithful forever?: Yea..for some ppl it works
(71) Believe there's a pot of gold at the end of the rainbow?: wish there was..

(72) Do you wish on stars?: Nope…I used to

LOVE, and all that stuff:
(73) Did you get frightened or uncomfortable seeing that as a section title?: no. why?
(74) Do you remember your first love?: guess so
(75) Still love him/her?: who?
(76) Do you consider love a mistake?: No
(77) What do you find romantic?: er….no idea? If it’s romantic, it’s romantic.. doesn’t have to be specific.
(79) Turn-off?: Lol lemme see....REAL unstable emos, stalkers, creepy weirdos and maybe…ppl who look like spongebob squarepants?
(80) Do you base your judgement on looks alone:? Nope! But looks still matter to a certain extent

(81) Have you ever wished it was more "socially acceptable" for a girl to ask a guy out?: yep
(82) Have you ever been romantically attracted to someone physically unattractive?: like what?
(83) Do you think the opposite sex finds you good looking? I highly doubt it
(84) What is best about the opposite sex? ???
(85) What's the last present someone gave you? A plushie? I think so…
(86) Are you in love?: well I’m attached…whaddya think? =)

WHO WAS THE LAST PERSON:
(87) That you laughed at?: me
(88) That laughed at you?: me =)
(89) That turned you on?: lol why would I put that on the internet...?
(90) You went shopping with? bf
(91) To disappoint you?: heh….. don’t remember, my result slip maybe (me again? D=)
(92) To ask you out?: my bf
(93) To make you cry?: more like the bloody dipshow event that I had to spent 120 bucks on
(94) To brighten up your day?: Uh...
(95) That you thought about?: I think about random ppls
(96) You saw a movie with?: bf again =)
(97) That you talked to on the phone?: Dad
(98) You talked to through IM?: Cheryl ...It's msn though
(99) You saw that you knew?: huh? my piano teacher?
(100) You turned down?: =)

WHEN WAS THE LAST TIME YOU:
(101) Smiled?: Today
(102) Laughed?: Today
(103) Cried?: long ago..
(104) Bought something? yesterday?? i think
(105) Danced?: I dun remember when
(106) Were sarcastic?: always
(107) Hugged someone?: Just
(108) Talked to an ex?: no ex.
(109) Watched your fave movie?: long ago? I usu watch now showing stuff in the cinemas now.

(110) Talked on the phone?: 1min ago
(111) Listened to the radio? Long ago( I have no radio in my room anymore D=)
(112) watched TV?: Yesterday
(113) Went out?: Just now
(114) Helped someone?: somewhere around dip show
(115) Sang?: Today
(116) Said "I love you"?: Umm last nite ...prolly

The aftermath of Squash.........

2008-03-23T12:59:00.003+11:00

My legs and ass hurts!!! Played squash last friday and it really killed my body yesterday and today.
Squash was fun, and wasn't as easy as it seemed. You really have to sprint alot after the ball and keep moving around the court. After sooooo long of no exercising, it really drained me of my strength pretty fast.
I realised another thing, which i should have known long long ago- the basics of all the basics of sports - to do warm up before playing, and cooling down after, or end up like the three of us, an ache in our legs and ass which never seem to want to leave. T_T

lolx.

Yoshiki - Unnamed Song

2008-03-17T07:35:00.006+11:00

This song has gotten itself stuck in my head these few days, it's written by Yoshiki (from X Japan if you dunno). I forgot the name of the person who sang this song, but i like her voice. It is a sad but beautiful song. It's from his classical album-Eternal Melody II.

I really think Yoshiki's very very talented and he's one of the few artistes that i would definitely be among the first to grab his new album, even if i have never heard of any of the songs in it. He's always been my favourite and most respected musician.

Yoshiki – unnamed song

I’m standing on the edge
And coming to my senses from my reverie
Never thought I would
Never thought I’d need to
Say goodbye I bid you farewell
My voiceless words are swaying a flame

I can’t live without
I can’t live without
I can’t live without you
Here in the dark
I whisper your name over again
Give me the strength to seize the light
If I should find a way

I saw a dream you were flying in the sky
Without a fear
Never touched the ground
But never came to my side
I tried so hard to reach out for your hand
The ruthless wind kept your soul away

I can’t live without
I can’t give without
I can’t breathe without you
Here in the world
Do you feel the rain
You said love takes no pain
With or without the sun
The lurid sky is still tearing me apart

Will she let freedome reign over the pain
Give me the strength to believe the words that love will find a way
I can’t live without
I can’t give without you
Here in the world
Do you feel the rain over the pain
Give me the strength to believe the words that love will find a way
With or without the sun
I’ll be and I won’t say goodbye cause I…
I know I’ll be with you

Chocs Rocks!!

2008-03-14T02:29:00.005+11:00

After a bad bodyache this half of day due to bad sleeping position, i met an old friend today... yay! we went to esplanade today.. coz i said i havent been to esplanade before in my life ( surprised? yeah! be surprised!!!! it's true) and she was super surprised lol... well i didnt had any chance or reason to get down there before, and people are saying there's nothing there so no one really wanted to go there actually... Anyway, she brought me to this great chocolate cafe.

It's AWESOME!

I had a choc drink called suckao, not a very nice name but the choc is reallly great, and reaaalllly expensive - $6.90 for a cup and the servings kind of little... they gave me a small cup to put on top of a small candle in a holder, with milk and chocolate chips(u can choose -dark, milk, or white). I had the milk choc. You're supposed to boil the milk and trow the choc chips inside the cup to melt it. Then there's this metal straw like thing, which burns my fingers when i drink from it, for u to suck the choc out.

Then there's the waffle... yum yum. they poured chocolate sauce on top, and serve it with icecream and raspberry(or strawberry?) on another sauce plate for u to dip the waffle in.
tastes............really............Awesome..............

The Awesome Suckao-

the one with the hole in the middle.. inside is the candle burning away at the milk and choc.....

our dessert .... the other really awesome thing here.. supposedly even better in Aussie

Dip Show '08

2008-03-14T02:11:00.007+11:00

Made me so busy... and cost me $137 printing all that stuff for this show. Really tired about it, but had fun looking through other people's works, especially the art and videos from MOI.

Photos taken a day before the alumni night:

A huge screen...

The lower area of the TCC

stage is for the ADM models to catwalk and show off their clothes design

IAD area..

My not-very-designed Storyboard....

Get da cameras rollin'!!

2008-03-05T01:03:00.007+11:00

Hey hey! a bunch of my friend's friends came along to my house yesterday to film for sch's project with their really cool looking equiptments!! they just borrowed a few room for filming ... and i guess setting up the the looking for all that props and setting the cameras and lightings at the right angle and adjusting the amount of light can really take very long.
Apparently, my friend's the main lead actress and they're filming a short film for their project 2... so cool, i wish my projects could be this interesting... but i bet it's also tough. Must really protect all the equiptments coz it's borrowed from school... may have to pay thousands if it gets spoilt i heard.
Maybe if i get into the IMD in NTU, i may get to do these interesting and cool stuff!!

All the people and equipments..... looks like they're going somewhere...

When did i become so superb and won so many prizes and certs??

Equipments at my room! wow... looks so ...tech tech..

A cool looking lighting equipment...more equipments

The main lead actress...... doing what in my room?? ah haha

NTU's LT2A

2008-03-02T20:40:00.005+11:00

Went TO NTU yesterday to take a faculty test for the admission into the ADM course thingie... very irritating and long walk to the mysterious LT2A which nobody knew (at least my friends didn't). Of course, i was late setting off, but everything is irritating about the journey to ntu.
WHO made the stupid boonlay bus interchange so insanely round and long and WHO placed the 179 bus stand all the way at the end so i innocently ran all the way to the end of the interchange, following the round round interchange route from the mrt just to catch the bus. I should have just walked across the road since it's just easier and faster. Anyways i got lost in NTU halfway and coincidentally met cheryl(also lost) in my journey walking to lt2A as the notice thing is placed too far apart for me ... so we were late late late for the test lor. The test isnt too hard, kinda fun too. Just the lack of time only, and me forgetting my application no, and US (cheryl and I) not reading the screen infront properly so we didnt write our names, IC no and Applic no on EVERY page of the test paper. We realized it after we turned in our papers... lol.
I felt so weird doing the test papers, it's like sec sch's exams again with all the 'choose 2 out of 3 options' questions, time limit, the room's silence and way of sitting. After all that snacking while working, or sleep halfway while working attitude i nurtured in poly, this definately is kinda ... weird... i even heard the bell sounding through the school and was like 'wow, this is so sec schooly'
I realised tt more than half of NTU is used for residential buildings too... it's also very filled with greens in there, around the bus stops and residential area. I think i saw a park and a giant pond inside while on the bus out of the sch. Wow.

Lt2A's somewhere below the buildings on the pic's right....

The mysterious and irritating LT2A....

The Nightmare is over

2008-03-02T20:09:00.007+11:00

At least the rushy and tedious part is. All that's left is wait till the dip show exhibition thingie is over. CHEERS!! I made it past these 4 months, complained alot, slacked even more and slogged through sleepless nights just to meet deadlines. i remember how it was like during o levels where i still can play around and have enough sleep just before that o level exams, and i totally missed it. I seriously wonder how i managed to get pass these four months , slacking helped alot, but other than that, i wonder how i managed to come to my final design, i really couldn't remember what was my thoughts and processes in the process... weird eh? I even had to think and jot down notes for my presentation too.
Tertiary education is over for me already... glad that diploma cert is going to be in my hands soon , and that i am actually going to move on to the next stage of life, but on the other hand, it means time to say goodbye to the days i spent with the ppl i met there and the lecturers, and the rooms i've been in. Yep, they'll all become history.It also means i'm older (blah..). I'm gonna miss it, like how i missed my pri and sec sch days.

Some random photos taken during the 4 mths...

My site analysis!! (Kidding, it's an example pinned up on the board)

Some 'Emo' person in TP...........

Me and a model and the giant printing machine we use for printing plans and sections

Messy scene in my hse caused by Cheryl and me

Somebody's half done model for FYP......

Hmm.... Shld get back to piano now... and finish up my unfinished games. These other two which i've been putting aside ever since i started Design.

Dossier Dossier FRIGGIN' DOSSIER!!

2008-02-27T18:36:00.002+11:00

OMG... just checked my mail and realised that damned dossier takes 15% of the total grade for FYP... yah i didnt hand in coz i didnt know it was necessary(monday), and overslept(yesterday). Then i tot it's all over, but i just checked my mail and realised it cost me 15% of my total thing and we have a last chance to hand in today by 3pm, with the late penalty of course... and i missed this damned chance again. I checked the stupid mail too late at 3:30pm (must submit by 3pm latest!!!) and that stupid mail was just sent this morning. S*** lah. plus i'm in sch now and the bloody dossier's at home. So i need to travel an hr back home and another hour back to sch, by which i doubt the lecturer's there anymore...
Whatever... i feel cursed.

last bit to go..

2008-02-27T18:25:00.003+11:00

Final crit is over... but dont be so happy yet. I thought i could back off from work a few days before preparing for dip show, but of course... given the time and things i need to complete, it's impossible. On top of that, many inconvenient and irritating stuffs and situations keep popping out. It's sickeningly irritating, so i ditch the work aside anyway and started playing my PS2 which i have left it to rot for quite a few months. yay! but the thing is i forgot what happened in the games i played eons ago that i left halfway... especially FFX(started playing since sec sch and paused it since poly yr 1, due to various reasons)... so yeah i replayed it again. haha and realised i cant remember the story line much too!! what bad memory lol.
Anyway, i'm piled with more work now due to my slacking off. Overall i'm still held prisoner by my dip show and will be freed in about 20 more days, walking off with a diploma cert.
Ganbatte!